Hi People!!!! Like anyone reads this LOLOL! I got a job finally! Hopefully, I won't get treated like I have in my last few jobs. I don’t know what it is about me that makes people hate me so much? As I keep repeating, it could be that I am a Chosen and that my Aura intimidate or irritates people! I don’t know. I watch a lot of YouTube videos on it, but I don’t know. It could also be that I look good for my age and that is why I am verbally assaulted at my jobs. Add the fact that I know what I am doing, and it is a recipe for jealousy! Really, I am not trying to tout my own horn but that could be what it is. I still don't get talked to at Starbucks and feel a lot of downlow hostility towards me there, well not just there but everywhere I go. If I go outside, I will feel a hostile vibe towards me, like people are ready to find some weakness in me to exploit. It makes me scared to engage people, because I feel like they are secret enemies, secretly against me. I have talked to my psychiatrist about this, but she just says it could be just my own thinking, but I don't think it is. I do notice people looking at me with murder in their eyes or people acting towards me in a certain way. They think I don't notice it, but I do, like hostility. I try to sit at Starbucks in a defensive position because I get scared that someday I might get approached for a fight. I have already been stalked a few times in this town from men in the gym and once by a man at Starbucks (with his son). So, I am very wary of people. It could be a sign of the times too though...right? Honestly, I really don't go outside much or to bars much because like I said every time I go outside, I get either this feeling that people want to watch me burn, or they want to put me on drugs or alcohol or worse! Every time I go outside, I feel like a multi-millionaire with no bodyguards, and I am in Afghanistan. Its ok, I have a lot of hobbies in my house where it is safe, but even my repair guy wants to make it his life mission to evict me, so it’s not even safe in my apartment...Ahh the Life of a Chosen! Till Next time!

Hello nerds!!! I will be needing a job soon. I don't want my E.D.D. to run out and must justify another 8 months of E.D.D. I might not get it and I don't want to chance that, although I have a lot of savings just in case. I have also been playing a lot of videogames lately. I am really getting into Midnight Suns. It is a good RPG about superheroes and the friendships between them. A great RPG! My videogaming is my escape from reality and a great hobby that I enjoy! I have been watching a lot of YouTube videos from independent creators on YouTube and I am starting to realize that 99 percent of people in America have no hobbies like me! I was shocked! I didn't realize that most people all they do is work and nothing else other than drink themselves into a stupor 3 times a week. No wonder people are depressed! You'd think that if you at least graduated College that you would have some intellectual hobbies because after all College is "Higher Learning" but no after college most people just work and drink 3 times a week. Drinking can lead to depression if done consistently. I am so glad I am not one of these people! My entertainment is videogames, and it has saved me from the work and drink life that permeates America, most especially Bakersfield. About all the population of Bakersfield drinks! I feel like I am the only one that doesn’t especially as a male! Which is why I get targeted by people in this town! I don't have alcohol induced depression like they do, and I have a hobby outside work that makes me happy. These other people in town just work get married to people they don't really like pop out kids they don't want and live a miserable life then hate on me because I don't want to do it...Marital Status Discrimination. It is extremely hard to prove Marital Status discrimination because I can’t afford a good lawyer and California is an "At-Will" employment state. Nobody is obligated to keep you hired. Anyways, I always get stared at Starbucks by other men. Not stared at but SNARED at! All because I am there to play videogames and they are just faking like they are working! I should be applauded for not being fake and showing up at Starbucks and being honest but no! These other men at Starbucks have no guts to show their actual selves at a social gathering spot...but I am not afraid to just go there every day and play videogames especially in front of women. These other men just want to be "Cool" and fake like they are working when really if you think about it is me that is working, I am the one thinking trying to beat a videogame and they are just there to "Fake" like they are studying just to be "Cool". Anyways...till next time!

Hello nerds!!! I am having a good week so far. I thought I wasn't going to get my E.D.D. Unemployment, but it came at the last minute. I keep thinking if E.D.D. calls I got my job searches ready...just in case. I have several options for employment in these coming months. I can either get a regular job and put up with these people hating me as a Chosen One, taking verbal assault, taking intentional isolation etc. etc. or I can work with my client Elias. He really likes me, but I have had that before in my life where people have put my hopes up thinking that I found an ally in this world only to find they were just as Tren Genius likes to say Decepticons that just wanted to either use me, backstab me, or way worse. I will get a regular job in July as money is getting tight and I am sick and tired of not having cash to go out to eat. I keep thinking about my immediate family and how they don’t believe in me. It’s like they all are stuck in the Matrix and not in the real world! There idea of being male tough is being a father, but I ask, how can you be tough when you got kids to think about. How tough can you be? My mother and Father all my life never believed in me, never thought I was capable of anything just because I am not like my brother who is a typical male slut, alcoholic. Why does being a male-slut and being an alcoholic equate to toughness...I don’t know??!! My mother and father just have this thinking from the 1950's where everybody drank and smoke and this thinking that you must be like the "Marlboro Man" a Cowboy that smokes. Yes, good luck with that lung cancer Paul! Now my brother, due to his reckless lifestyle is hanging on a thread to life, and I am willing to bet doesn't think he is too bad or tough anymore. Everywhere I go nobody wants to talk to me because I think this way! Which is the correct way to think, but nobody wants to admit it, especially to me. Anyway, till next time! MAHALLO!!