Hello Fellow Nerds!! LOL! It’s been a week since I posted. I am over the firing at Omni. I still think about it and hope that the next job doesn't end up like that. People can be so cruel. I just can't figure it out. Again, it is because I am "Chosen" and that is why. Or it’s because I take pride in my appearance, and I am focused, so the higher ups see me as a threat. Whichever the reason I think it’s a lot of B.S. Its sad that I never get Justice in this type of situation, and it happens in every job I have been at I always end up being bullied and getting fired. Even when I just go out it happens. I go to Starbucks, and nobody likes to talk to me. I sit in the dining area, and most people want to avoid my sitting area. It’s like my gym membership. I have been going to Planet Fitness for almost 6 to 7 years and nobody wants to talk to me ever, and when they do you can tell it takes a lot of courage. I look back at my life and I have had very few friends or even people that want to talk to me. My own family hates me, and I don't understand why. I get verbally attacked by everybody in my family all the time. I feel that I should have been the Scapegoat but since I don't do drugs, the whole family just ignores me. My mother hates me with passion and uses the fact that she is my mother to hurt me all the time. Why do people react to me this way?? I don’t know! People don't seem to like me at all wherever I go. Like I said it could be because I am a "Chosen One" a person who truly has God in his heart. I have seen a lot of YouTube videos and people who truly have God in their heart are going to get persecuted and most people will react negatively to them, very few (other Chosen) will react positively to them. So far in my life, I have run into mostly people that react negatively and it makes me sad...MAHALLO!

Well, Hello, Hello! I am liking this time off from work. I get a chance to do things around the house and play some games. I still think about why people don't seem to like me or want to talk to me. Being a "Chosen" can get lonely. I keep thinking that my Lifelong Sobriety has made me Isolated all things being equal. My life has been a difficult one, especially as a Chosen One. People tend to hate me a lot for my "Anointing.” It’s either they verbally assault me, or they just ignore me and pretend I don't exist. Life is hard for a Saint such as myself. I must do everything by myself, I must fix my car myself, I can't ask my cousin who is a Mechanic to help. I must find my own job, by myself. I must cook, clean, develop a healthy diet...in other words I must grow up and take care of myself all on my own. It’s sad that profoundly good people must go through this, but this world in my mind is run by Satan and if you are not one of sinners then you are isolated, and nobody cares! My one consolation is that dogs notice me. The other day I was leaving Starbucks for another day of gaming and nobody acknowledging that I even displace the air, I went outside to my car and an old woman with a dog was outside. The dog stared at me and the old woman, the only person that showed acknowledgement of my existence looked at me. I should get a dog, I don’t know. Every time I go to Starbucks pet dogs stare at me, Like I said I am a Chosen. God Chose me and these dogs who sense things at a higher plane can notice this. Now if only people will notice me or just give me credit for existing! I guess when evil people surround you, they will either love you or hate you or not even notice you. The Sacrifice I have made to be a Lifelong Soberman if these people only knew, the pain, the heartache, the suffering to be Lifelong Sober in this evil world. Anyways I better go, my only companion is my computer because even family will ditch you.... needs me. =D!

Hello My Fans...Nerds!!! I haven't posted in a week, but it feels like years! LOL! I have had time to reflect on why I got fired at Omni Family Health and I just don't know why. I think it might be because I am the Chosen One, but I don’t know. Anyways having no job has given me time to play a lot of games and forget the reason as to why people hate me so much. Every time I stop to think about it, it makes me sad, maybe it’s because I am not in the "In Crowd" in this town so they treat me like crap and fire me. It’s sad that to last long at a job you must be part of some sort of "Cool Kid" Crowd rather than be at the job on the merit of your abilities, but that is the way society has crumbled in my opinion. Job quality is no longer king, it’s more about who you are cool with and not whether you can do the job better than the other guy that keeps you at the job. Anyways today I had my Therapy appointment with Ramona. She tries to help me, but I know she has a lot of patients and can't individualize my care, but it is nice to have someone to vent to every now and then. She makes a good sounding board! I think I will wait to find a job around July. My mother called me on my birthday, and I did not answer. I know what she will say. That I "Worship the Devil" and that I need to come closer to God. My Mother is the worst Narcissist I have ever known! And if you do something better than her, and I do EVERYTHING better than her then you are worshipping the Devil! Before I went to bed my ex-client called me Brooke Beaumont. I liked doing shifts with her, she was nice. She called because she needed to find a Caregiver in Los Angeles which is where I helped her move to. I told her the best way to find one is on the Internet. I hope she is doing ok; I was thinking of visiting her. Till next time!

Hello guys!!! I do not know if anyone reads this, but anyways what do I care?? It is for me anyway, right?! I am over getting fired from Omni Family Health. It hurt for a while though. Especially the way they treated me, for no reason. The life of a Chosen is hard. One of my clients at Maxim Healthcare Elias Bullard might want my Services on a private basis. I might get paid a lot for doing this and I am excited! It might give me a chance to build my Savings. I had to fix my car yet again. The Clutch was shuddering the car and I had to fix it if I wanted to keep driving my car, add the fact that my starting issue with my car was getting worse due to the higher temperatures in Spring and I just had to get my car fixed. It cost me $3500.00 to fix my car!!! Luckily, I have Savings. I always put into Savings whenever I get the chance for an emergency, and THIS IS THAT emergency! My car is new now. It took a week at the Dealership to get my car fixed and I just sat in my apartment getting fat waiting (LOL!). My car drives like a dream now, hopefully that is the last time I fix my car for a while. Anyways, back to my client Elias LOL! I have a good close relationship with Elias, and he likes me as a Caregiver! I will be doing quite a bit for him as he is going to school for Massage therapy. Like I said I am apprehensive as well as excited. I have never done this type of work before. This is not like Caregiving where you just go to a Home and do a few tasks then go home. This is more involved, but that is ok, I do not mind the challenge! I will also get paid quite a bit I hope and the way my life is with my family not supporting me, that is especially important. The only thing I am worried about is the mileage on my car. My car is a high mileage vehicle and I have had to fix it constantly. Hopefully, it holds up to the long drive to Maricopa where Elias resides. regardless I need the money and these jobs where they are so quick to hire me then fire me are getting tiresome. Anyways MAHALLO!!!