Hello everybody! I missed my posting day. It was supposed to be Saturday, meaning yesterday. OH WELL! I will make up for it. I do not think the people at my work as an ECM Coordinator really like me. I was just cracking a joke with my co-worker and the next time I had an e-mail conversation with her, she told the boss on me for no reason! I am beginning to think that since I work with a bunch of women, they cannot believe there is a guy like me that kept his character intact, even though I talk like a 50-year-old. I look twenty-three so I am guessing they think I am inexperienced, yet when they get into it with me, I defend myself like A VETERAN OF LIFE! In a way they fear me, scared of my potential. Most guys by the time they are fifty, they have done so many terrible things that they no longer can follow the right way, or no longer respect women at all. So, these girls at my work, think I am inexperienced either with women or Life or job or all three, but I keep acting like a 50-year-old and they are jealous, and at the same time cannot believe it! It is exceedingly rare to find a guy like me in Bakersfield. Most guys in Bakersfield either destroy their character drinking, with women (like my brother) or in gangs and by the time they are fifty, they have a lot of regrets and have developed a lot of psychoses to where they can no longer work. I get looked at a lot by them. They try not to let me notice, but they do. I remember a delivery guy walked by in the hall about ten feet away from me, and he stared at me. I felt the stare and looked his way, and he quickly looked away. Then there was this other time that I was talking on the phone with a patient, and I said that I used to have friends a lot of years ago and parties and the girl who was working like ten feet away stared at my backside. I felt the stare and looked at her. She got startled and looked back at her desk. I have been looking at a lot of "Chosen One" videos on YouTube and I am beginning to think that that is what I am a Chosen One. Which is someone that does the right thing all the time and it infuriates people because they wish they could do it but do not have the strength of character to do it. I hope God grants me the mental strength to go to work and take the verbal games they play as well as being stared at like a freak. Being treated this way makes you feel like you are weird or stand out in an odd way. Chosen Ones DO stand out but for the right reasons... I do not think I will last long at OMNI Family Health MAHALLO!!!! =(

Hey there people! Just got home from playing videogames at Starbucks, my favorite pastime!! I swear! I could sit there for like 8 hours. HEHE! I went home though to do my Social Media posts, like anybody reads it. LOL! It is more for me to get my thoughts down than anything. I have been thinking about how my family treats me lately and have gotten some bouts of anger! It is sad that a family can be torn apart due to petty things that should not even matter. That whole saying that blood is thicker than water is a total FASLEHOOD! In fact, the WORST enemy you will ever have will come from your own house most of the time. It is only natural! They have lived with you all their lives and yours and they know how to hurt you...or love you...and if someone is given the power to hurt someone...they will! My Mother, and brother, Niece and Nephew are jealous of me because I possess traits and qualities they do not have, and instead of learning how to be like me, they would rather hurt me. Their egos are too big to ask me how I do it. Most especially my mother! She grew up in the 1950s and in her mind, it still is 1950! And if you disagree...she will yell in your face till you say it is. To my mother everything she does not know that I know (AND THERE IS ALOT) is DEVIL Worship! She thinks I am "Defying the Bible" with the way I am, and since she is filthy rich, none of my family want to go against her because they want to be in the will! They do not care if I die or get isolated...if my mother sees them as loyal to her and she puts them in the will and its PAYDAY when she dies. Since I am the target of my mother’s Narcissism (The Scapegoat), I am about 90% sure I will never be in her will. She said I will be, but my mother is a good liar, and she hates me on the down low, so I am not counting on inheritance. One indicator is that when she sold our house here in Bakersfield, she did not give me a dime. I am afraid of my future. Am I going to work myself to death? Am I going to be homeless in my old age? I do not know! Critical issues for me. My psychiatrist said that old people are well taken care of, and her saying that kind of reassured me. But even then, I am going to work to have savings and investments, and workout to stay healthy. I got to live with the mindset, that I am alone in this world...SAD! Pray for me!

Well Howdy!! I got another week of work out of the way, and I am getting the hang of my job so far! Which is good news! I was worried that I might have angered a few of my co-workers after my little tussle with one of them. I am thinking the girl I got into a verbal altercation with was just immature and just wanted to cause trouble. She was probably just mad that she had to train me. I am not getting my hopes up though, as I have had jobs like this before where I felt like I would last long, and then I end up being fired for stupid reasons. Like I keep saying, I could be a Chosen One and that is why I have issues with people. I don't want to toot my own horn or anything, but I could be too good for people to stand! I have realized that in order to fit in with people it is good to be a good person, but not a saint, because it annoys people. Most people are not that good and like to at least win at some things with you, and if you are percieved as winning at everything, they will try to avoid you or never acknowledge your existence. Which is the case for me. I have learned a hard lesson about this world. Extremes are always frowned upon. If you are extremely bad people will not like you, and by the same token if you are extremely good people will not like you either! I wish I had come to this conclusion in 8th grade, it would have saved me alot of hearteache and pain at the hands of family, friends, and people in general. I am progressing quite well at my job though! I feel like I am getting the hang of it, and on Monday I get to do a home presentation for Enhanced Care Management, which I am kind of excited about, and apprehensive at the same time! I will also do a shift with Brooke Beaumont tommorow on Sunday and make a few bucks on the side. I had a big meal at Just Wing it Yesterday and had a "Boss Hog" Burger and it would be good to make a little money to compensate...till next time! MAHALLO!!

Hello People! My first real week of work is done! Phew! Training was good. My job seems easy and I am not in the same building as the girl that I had a verbal argument with last week. She works at the Mall View Location, I work at Corporate. I did have a weird conversation with the IT guy in the Lunch room yesterday. I got a weird vibe from him, like he doesn't really like me...I dunno I could be just paranoid or something. You can never deny your instincts! The conversation went like this. He kind of said that I should be doing more at work and that I should be busier. He is not my boss, so I dunno why he said these things. Also, he had a weird look on his face...a hostile look. There must've been a reason why I felt that way when he conversed with me. I got the feeling he is a Virgin and maybe that is why. He must assume, as all Virgins assume, that everybody is having sex except him. I always get this judgement that I am having all kinds of sex everywhere, when I am not. PEOPLE ARE CRAZY! LOLOL! Or the conversation could be related to me being a "Chosen One". If you don't know what that is, you should look it up. Its the reason we have loners in this world! They are not Robert Deniro from "Taxi Driver" (although thats what the media would lead you to believe). Actually loners are just "too Good" to be around because we make people "Look Bad". This is because most people are all about looks and a "Chosen One' is not trying to look like anything. I got my first pycheck yesterday WOOHOO! I bought some new shoes and I will buy some new sweats for myself to get ready for the winter. Winters in Bakersfield aren't that bad, there is no snow. They are the kind of winters that you just want to curl up in bed and play XCOM...IN SWEATS! Till Next Time!