Hi People! I just got back from L.A. doing a shift with my client Brooke Beaumont. I am thinking of either doing Caregiving on my own or moving to L.A. or both. Dunno?? It might fix my problem of not lasting at jobs. I am just too smart for Bakersfield. Dunno?? I am thinking I might run into the same problem over there in L.A. not lasting at jobs, being verbally assaulted then all the blame put on me. Again, I would like to say that I might be a "Chosen" and if that is the case, then people are either really going to like me or really going to hate me, it is either one or the other. I illicit extreme feelings in people for me. All because I do the right thing all the time. At least my client Brooke Beaumont likes me, but that is just one person, and unfortunately, I must deal with more than one person in the world LOL! I still feel bad about losing my job at Omni Family Health, but then again maybe all those people there were bad or did not like the fact that I was that good aka "A Saint". I have learned the hard way that nobody likes a Saint, they will never tell you this, but nobody does or at least nobody likes them at a job. I might have another client to do Caregiving with, but that might not pan out. People need to see things from my point of view! I am too good for a woman, too good to have kids. As a man that is devasting to not be able to be a father. I had to come to terms with this and it still bugs me to this day. You grow up thinking you will be just like your parents have a nice house a wife 2 kids and a dog then you realize later that only a certain type of person achieves the American Dream nowadays!

Hello People of the World!! LOL! I just lost my job about 3 weeks ago and it hurts to put your all into a job only to have people all hate you for no reason, then summarily get fired. I feel like my personality or something about me is so hated that it is better that I do not talk to anyone so as not to offend them so much that they shoot me dead on the spot. I mean with Mass shootings as the norm, this might happen the way I am. I had a call from my ECM (Enhanced Care Management) person, and he interviewed me to see if anything was wrong or if I needed any help, such as more services, as well as if I need to continue services with ECM. I told him I was not sure since I was still sad that I lost my job, but I told him that I try to exercise and play video games to cope. I also asked him if I ever needed ECM later if I could get it and he said "Yes of course" so I said to go ahead and discontinue it. I think I can manage. I just hope I do not make someone angry to the point that they intern me in a psych ward again and my life is destroyed, which has happened several times in the past...best to stay quiet and out of the way...safer for me. In the meantime, I have been playing a lot of games. I really like Total War: Warhammer III. It is quite good! And since I have nobody to play tabletop battles with, this is a suitable alternative. I like how you can see each unit fight and there is so much detail in each unit, especially when you zoom in. I like it. I think Total War: Warhammer will replace XCOM2 for a while. I have been playing XCOM2 for almost 10 years and I know it inside and out. I will replace it with this game. I played Rome: Total War a long time ago, so I have experience. Anyways...HAPPY GAMING!!!!

Hello all! I have had time to reflect...on things...I cannot seem to last at a job to save my life! I am a good worker, and a good person but people do not want to have me there for an extended period. Jobs do not mind hiring me, but as far as having me stay for an extended period...its "Hell No!". I do not know why. They never tell me; they just fire me. Then of course wherever I go, I get violent looks from people like they are staring at Jefrey Dahmer in the flesh! The world looks very hostile to my eyes! I would much rather be in a game world where I am respected by things that do not exist, by digital people that do not judge me. I have much more emotional connection to my digital characters and digital friends than I ever did with people. I will take a 4-month Hiatus from work to finish a few games then I will start applying to jobs...YET AGAIN! I am willing to bet I will get hired just like that then after a week into the job, my co-workers and boss will all conspire to fire me. I usually last just 3 to 6 months at a job...TOPS! Yet I see these dumbasses last 20 years at a job and they just clock-in and sleep. People need to walk a mile in my shoes and see how it feels and stop judging at face value. It is a wonder I did not do drugs or alcohol with this type of sporadic work history. I am tough like that, I guess. The only job I have lasted long at was Maxim Healthcare, and that was 7 years, but even then, there were several bullshit complaints about me that were just bogus! I just want to be digitized into a game world where I save the world and have friends that do not backstab me, where the bad guys were Black, and the good guys were white, where the good guys get the girl. Nowadays the worst human slimeball gets married I swear! You should have seen a previous boss of mine. He looked like an escaped convict in scrubs and was happily married for years...I hate this clown world! The game world makes more sense! Badboy Industries my ass!

Hi People! I just got fired at my job and I am sad. Dunno why people do not like me?! I am a genuinely nice person, makes me feel bad, like somehow, I am doing something unconsciously that makes people hate me. Like I have some character flaw that I do not realize I have. Like I said, being a Chosen is a hard life and people really should not hate me for it. When you are Chosen aka or have a Saintly character, you get equal parts good and equal parts bad so there really is not any reason to hate. Life would not exist without balance, and nobody has it all, and nobody has nothing. I think a lot of people do not see the positives in their life and see me all happy and think that somehow my happiness means I get everything, when I am simply happy to be alive, that is all! I have lived in the Philippines and seen people who happily shit in a bucket all their lives and are not homeless that is their "Family toilet" they take a shower with a bucket and a big barrel of water. Life in America really is not particularly bad for the poor here. The poorest apartment available would be a luxury apartment for anybody in a 3rd world country, which is why I am happy...simply happy to have a beating heart. It is so true that being positive, all things being equal, can make you the most hated person in the group, to the point that you will be fired. Is it my fault you can't control your appetite? or your drinking? Is it my fault you do not like to work, and I do? To me it is just cardio for your body and mind but what do I know right? I am just a child that has had an 8-year meaningful relationship with a woman he showed love to. I am not "Grown" and negative like they are. I hate people!!!

Hello People! Well, it finally happened I got fired for no reason! The life of a saint. You simply can't be allowed to work or support yourself at all, and your family will abandon you for no reason too. I came to realize about 5 years ago that I really don't know my immediate family at all, they are all strangers to me, enemies that hate my guts. I don't trust any of them with my dirty underwear. I am alone in this world now. I find it sad that hate and jealousy about petty insignificant things can cause you to be alone, left to die by your family, but unfortunately that is the truth. Growing up you never would have guessed that your brother, or mother, or Father, etc. would later in life be your worst enemy but they are. that really hurts to know that you were all this time sleeping with the enemy like that old Julia Roberts movie. This also goes for jobs too. At Omni I was isolated, nobody wanted to talk to me or socialize with me, and I was written up for no reason at all. This is a sad fact of the 21st Century. Good people are no longer liked. They are gaslighted, ridiculed and laughed at. This is why there are so many shootings around the United States because of the rise of bullying. This all started when they started releasing inmates into cities and they taught others the fine art of the gaslight. Every time I see a mass shooting, I know that the person who committed it was provoked to no end, and he broke down and shot up the place. This is what happens to saints in this world, they are tortured and psychologically hammered to commit an act that will put them in jail. I wish I could just live off E.D.D. and Food stamps for the rest of my life. I want no part of modern-day society or people for that matter.