Hi People! Sorry for the late post, but I will try to make up for it. LOL! I reconnected with an Old Client today! Which is great! I have been meaning to see what happened to him. I guess things for him didn't work out in Texas like he thought. The world is just getting worse, and I agree with him! The way I see it if its bad here in the U.S.A. its 10 times worse in another country, so I feel fortunate to be here in the U.S. Anyway I finally...FINALLY beat Sekiro: Shadows Die Twice! What an excellent game! Exceedingly hard too, but it was satisfying to beat an extremely difficult game. Only Hardcore gamers can say they have beat Sekiro, and I challenge any Call of Duty player to try it! I bet you will quit playing after 1 week! LOL! It took me 2 years of constant playing to beat Sekiro, BUT BOY WAS IT SATISFYING! It is getting to the point that I might need to start working again. Sad. I was hoping to beat my backlog of games that I have been meaning to beat for a while. I guess it will have to wait! Working has it own satisfaction too! Making money, contributing to your Retirement (ROTH IRA), and Savings, trying to get along with co-workers. Its like a game too. So maybe I won't miss my 4 months off of work beating games. I did beat quite a few games this lay off: Sekiro: Shadows Die Twice, Shadow of the Tomb Raider, Bioshock 1, Bioshock 2, and Bioshock: Inifinite, and Half-life 2. GOOD TIMES! While Working, I am hoping to beat Demon Souls another SOulsbourne game! Then finally Elden Ring. Then I would have completed the SOulsbourne Series! WOOHOO! Can't wait!

Hi Hella-Nerdy People! Its been a week but I have been quite busy! First off I got my Laser Peel Treatment on my Right Wrist. I can't wait to get rid of it! To me, its a symbol of me getting rid of my family who simply hates me! Again this goes out to anybody that feels like their family hates them. They do! You are better than they are and that is why! I keep thinking of that Taylor Swift song "Your on you own kid, You always have been". This type of thing can happen to men too! Especially wiht the advent of Feminism and how empowered women are nowadays! Men can ALSO go through Narcissistic Abuse just like women! My appointment is at 9am. Its just a follow up. They are going to evaluate what it looks like and maybe ask me if I want more Laser Treatments. I think I will want two more. I don't ever want to see it again on my wrist ever! There is a scroll in one of those Dark Souls games after you beat a boss. Its in a Chest where the boss was. When you open it it says "You do not Deserve this". It is so true! I think the people that play these games and win at it, have had exceedingly hard lives that is why they, and I, like playing these exceedingly hard games. My life, like a Soulsborne game has been EXCEEDINGLY hard, yet I look like I have never been anywhere (the sign of a Chosen One). Becuase I look this way, it is very easy for me to get a job and SURIVVE! "You're on your own, kid You always have been" -You're on your own, kid -Taylor Swift

Hello People!! Today is the day I do it! I get rid of this scar on my right wrist. This is a closing of an important chapter in my life. A closing of a Chapter for Good! I will no longer be reminded of how my family mistreated me in our house here in Bakersfield for 34 years! My Dad, my Mother and the rest of my family simply do not like me, or love me. Sometimes when you are born into hate, you don't realize you are being talked to in a negative manner, you don't realize nobody loves you, becuase its all you know! If it wasn't for my Mother insisting that I find a girl, I would probably be in a psych ward by now as a 40 year old Virgin with -10,000 Self-Esteem. The only reason my Mother insisted that I find a girl is because as a Narcissist, she thinks she knows everything! She thinks I would be incapable of finding one all by myself because she thinks I am stupid and would be destroyed mentally by her insistance. What she did, and what all Narcissists do was underestimate this Empath. I found a girl!, or rather she found me. She must've noticed how I was mistreated by my family at one of my Psychotherapy Sessions, thought I was cute and got my number from my record. I had an 8 year relationship with her and it was Life-changing. Sometimes, if you are born into it, born into a loveless childhood, born into hate, you don't realize you where never loved by your family and it takes a stranger with no bais against you to show you what love is, not only how your family is treating you, how your family talks to you, but to love you. In my life, I have only had 8 years of somebody loving me, AND LOOK WHAT I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED!!! To this day my ex-gf thinks she did nothing for me but really all she had to do was love me. Add the fact that she is a highly successfull Accountant and does she have to teach a class? No right? I am not as stupid my Mother thinks I am. I am around my ex-girlfriend 24/7! I see how she is? She gets up early in the morning, has a ROTH IRA...etc..etc.. Thats all anyone needs to succeed. The influence of someone highly succesfull....RIGHT?

Hi All! I have been doing alot of Youtube watching lately about drug addiction. I have come the the realization that people on drugs, or who are gangmembers are the biggest spoiled brats of society! Everything is given to them! Everybody roots for them to succeed! Everybody bands together to help them. Me though I am a Lifelong sober person and in Society that is frowned upon. Nobody in society will EVER say they don't like you but it is true. Sober people are the most hated people in Society! I have the scar on my right wrist to prove it! There is no reason someone that is Sober all his life should have 4 suicide attempts in his lifetime but I do. That is sad...the verbal asaaults are viscous! In todays society you are better off doing a little weed on the weekends or maybe getting a little drunk on weekends rather than staying home and being sober. The reason being through drugs you will gain a social network and through that network people will help you succeed as you do drugs together. Compadres!! Brothers till death united through chemical addiction! All you have to do is manage you drug habit! As a Lifelong sober person, you'll have no friends or a social network. All you'll have is your sobriety. Every job you get you will be isolated because everybody at your job secretly hates you for being sober. Then when there is an excuse to fire someone guess what? You are first in line! Why? Because when you are sober you have a work ethic that is SECOND TO NONE and you will make the drug addicts who are a success because they just know other drug addicts jealous and will band together to fire you. Society is run and built through Chemical Addiction! I am living proof