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Saturday, October 10, 2026
Starbucks Encounter: Budget Criticism
HIYA NERDSS, WEIDO-WACKOS! I wanted to share something that happened yesterday at Starbucks. There was this kid, probably in his twenties, who started talking smack about me. He claimed that every time I go to Starbucks, I only buy something costing less than two dollars. He even mentioned knowing a gay YouTuber who's really budget-conscious. I responded, "Oh wow, that's great."
But judging by his tone, what he was really trying to say was that since I have money, I should be spending more. While he's right to a certain extent, but what these lazy, unattractive men—and in this case, a gay man—need to understand is that when you're handsome and athletic and perceived as a sexual threat, people aren't eager to help you out. Yes, I have savings, and I could easily spend more at Starbucks, but if an emergency arises—like if a jealous guy from the gym who dislikes me decides to slash my tires because he's envious—who will pay for new tires?
Will this unattractive, overweight gay man with all his friends, because nobody sees him as a sexual threat, step in to help? Absolutely not. My dad would never buy me anything, and my mother, who is focused on beauty, sees me as competition since I'm a good-looking guy; she wouldn't help me either. So even though I do have money, I find myself unable to spend it freely!
I have to get creative with how I enjoy myself, which usually means going to Starbucks, playing video games, and maybe buying something inexpensive like a piece of cheese. I spend about $50 a month on this. If I were to splurge on more expensive food, like a $30 pizza every time I went there, then I’d be risking my savings if I needed money for something important later. Who would bail me out then? None of those guys competing with me would help; they’d probably relish in my misfortune.
Most people don’t understand the challenges that come with being good-looking and athletic beyond high school. Their idea of social and financial success comes from their high school experiences, but what they fail to realize is that after high school, the uglier you are, the more nasty a person you are, the more you might succeed. In contrast, when you're perceived as a sexual threat, you're more likely to be let go from your job soon after.
It's crucial for me to have cash reserves; otherwise, I could end up homeless. Many attractive men have faced severe struggles, even contemplating suicide, due to this ongoing competition with other men and women since childhood. The bottom line is that life is much harder for a handsome man than for a beautiful woman. Beautiful women are everywhere, while there is only about one in 1,000 handsome men with high testosterone out there, making us a rare and dwindling breed. It’s truly reflective of the times we’re living in…
Oh! And I hate people!
MAHALO!
Saturday, October 3, 2026
Fire Card Training Reflection
What’s up, NERDS!!! WEIRDOS!!! It’s time for another blog post from the biggest serial killer in Bakersfield, that has never harmed anyone. I just completed my Fire Card training for work, and I must say, it was remarkably interesting. I answered all the questions correctly except for the one about leaving an unruly patient during a fire. With over 20 years of caregiving experience, I couldn't bring myself to say I would leave a patient in that situation, even if they were difficult.
I would feel terrible, like I had sinned. I know the right answer is to evacuate because a fire can spread rapidly—completely engulfing a building within minutes. Still, I can't imagine leaving my former clients in such a situation. It would break my heart to see someone like Matt or Joe perish in a fire, especially when Joe just wants to feel loved by a woman and live a good life. I wouldn’t be able to abandon them like that.
Honestly, like Indiana Jones, I would find a way to save everyone, even if it meant thinking on my feet. As Indiana Jones would say “I dunno…I am making this up as I go…” Maybe it was a trick question, because any seasoned nurse, or in my case, veteran healthcare worker, would struggle with the idea of leaving patients to die, even if it were difficult to evacuate them.
While going through my training, I also watched a video discussing why good people nowadays often cut ties with others. This resonated deeply with me. I used to give everything to everyone; I would beg for acknowledgement and friendship, but it was never reciprocated. Tired of being hurt in this selfish world, I decided to distance myself and focus on my journey with just myself and God.
I’m so exhausted by selfish people. Like my neighbor, for instance. I gave him some sound advice about staying in these apartments despite the lack of central air, pointing out how affordable they are and that any job could easily cover the rent. But it seems my kindness only encouraged him to take advantage. He started grooming his dog right outside my apartment and never cleaned up the hair. Then, he dumped a lot of trash in front of my house, assuming I wouldn’t report him.
Well, I reprted the trash and filed a complaint, but he still hasn’t stopped. While he’s not dumping trash outside anymore, he has now cluttered my yard with his gardening supplies. He seems totally unaware that this bothers me. He claimed he made a garden for another neighbor but never offered to do anything for my yard. When I told him to do whatever he wanted, he smiled as if he thought he was getting away with something.
I’ve filed a complaint, and if he continues this behavior, I’ll file another one. I thought I had a friend in my neighbor, but it turns out all I have is a black hole that just sucks away my kindness.
Young people today seem to grow up with everything handed to them, and when they become adults, they often develop a sense of entitlement and narcissistic tendencies that ruin society. They take everything that isn’t nailed down and care about no one but themselves!
As I have gotten older, I have grown to despise people more and more….and isolate more and more….
Till Next Time!
MAHALO!!
Saturday, September 26, 2026
Parental Empathy and Child Well-being Concerns in Modern Society
Hi y'all, fellow nerds!
I just finished watching a YouTube video about a man in his 20s who recently attempted suicide. Having had my own struggles with suicidal thoughts, I found the reaction of his parents particularly troubling; they treated him like he was the problem, yelling at him as if he were a criminal. It seems that many parents today lack understanding and empathy for their children. Too often, children are seen merely as a means to an end—a way to elevate social status and gain validation from society.
Indeed, many parents today shy away from the hard work of parenting, which could explain why this young man felt driven to attempt suicide. As a person in my 50s, I can relate to the challenges of being in your 20s; I also felt as though no one cared about me. The main difference is that I never turned to drugs or alcohol, which can worsen suicidal thoughts. Parents often want their children to just be compliant while they focus on their own ambitions, and this lack of support can lead to devastating outcomes.
It seems that families today, particularly since the late 1990s, often operate not out of love but out of competition. Siblings compete against each other, and parents compete with their children for attention and approval. This dynamic might explain the tragic outcome of a popular actress like Hayden Panettiere. I can envision her struggle: trying to find her path while dealing with a father who was overly attracted to her and a mother who felt insecure. This kind of environment can lead a person to feel unloved and ultimately result in tragedy, as seen in her drug overdose.
This cycle of neglect contributes to the growing homeless population in America. A study conducted in 2010 found that one in three people in the U.S. displayed narcissistic traits—caring only for themselves. I'm sure that number has increased over time. The pressure to succeed in your 20s, to establish a family and a stable life, is immense. It's remarkable that I've never turned to drugs or alcohol, despite growing up in a similarly narcissistic family as many others.
I genuinely hope that this young man finds peace. I believe many people sense that he is a good person, and it’s concerning how some may manipulate him into substance abuse. For instance, one friend in my town repeatedly tried to pressure me into consuming extremely strong alcohol and drugs. I also have someone at Starbucks who I suspect is trying to do the same thing.
It’s unfortunate that some people, recognizing the goodness in others, feel compelled to sabotage their paths. Their motives are selfish; they prey on good people, hoping to drag them into a life of addiction or other harmful behaviors. And when these good individuals face the consequences, the manipulative ones often evade responsibility, claiming they were only encouraging a friend to "just try it." Unfortunately, many bad people take pleasure in the downfall of those who are genuinely good.
I HATE PEOPLE!!!
HATE THEM SO MUCH!!!!
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