Hello everybody! I can't sleep, it’s Friday and not Saturday my usual posting day. I was just up thinking about what is going on with me in this town. Or my Life? I have watched a lot of "The Chosen One" videos and these videos really resonate with me! When the people presenting them talk about a Chosen past life, it’s exactly my past life, when they talk about anything about a Chosen, it’s like it is spot on perfect with my life. I keep remembering when I went to Starbucks on Stockdale 5 days ago and this guy, a younger guy. I remember him because he had a shirt that said “Sex Wax” on it. He pretended to crack his neck and then when he had an excuse to look behind him, he STARED at me like he was staring at a terrorist Unabomber. I have been going to this Starbucks for almost 8 years, and nobody ever wants to talk to me. They all treat me like I am an Alien that walked in. Like I haven’t bathed in 2 years. If the only vacant seat is next to me, everybody is sure not to take that seat. It’s like a Group Gaslighting that is going on. Everybody secretly knows I go there and since I go there and think, and they all go there to fuck they want to Gaslight me to make me do something out of character to make it seem like the guy doing challenging work is the bad guy. I don't know what to do anymore. I cannot just sit in my apartment all day and never go outside! I must go outside my apartment, so I don't go stir crazy, and it just seems like when I do, I get a Group Gaslighting such as what goes on at Starbucks. I find it sad that I as a good person must undergo this but that is how it is. Two days ago, a young Mexican guy was sitting next to me, and a girl walked into Starbucks. He looked at the girl then he STARED at me. I know what he was trying to say. That I am a fugit, without saying it. Does he have to admit it? Where is the evidence? He wanted to get me to react and get me out of character to make it seem like I am the bad guy. I like going to this Starbucks because for some reason I can think there. The Layout is incredibly open and there are a lot of plugs everywhere so I can plug my laptop and start playing my game. I have nothing in this world except a 6-pound laptop and it’s like people want to deny it to me.

Hi all! I have been thinking about my life and how isolated I am. It just seems like nobody wants to talk to me...EVER! I don't know what it is. I have been going to this Starbucks in Stockdale and I have been going for years and only 2 to 3 people ever talk to me. And when they do, it’s like a painful experience for them. Like they are just talking to me just so that when I shoot up the place, they can make the excuse that yes, they were talking to the guy he was simply weird and a loner gamer that shot up the place. Not one person ever likes to just come up to me and strike up a conversation. The women don't ever say anything to me ever. In fact, they don't even want to sit next to me...EVER! It’s like the gym I got o. I have been going to this Planet Fitness for almost 7 years and nobody ever says anything to me. In fact, they LOVE to gaslight me. I get verbally insulted every now and again, and I feel that if I don't defend myself, it will lead to them ganging up on me and I will get kicked out of that gym. Every time I go to the gym, this black personal trainer always stares at me, and it isn't a kind stare either. I can't describe the type of stare it is...it’s the same stare I get from the women in Planet Fitness. It’s a stare that is blank. Like they are looking at me blank faced. It creeps me out. I don't know what their problem is. We are truly in the end times! I have long since given up! I mean if even the mentally slow person that goes to Starbucks won't say hi to you and he says hi to everybody then there must be issues with me that people see that I don't. I see a lot of people at Starbucks pairing up and going out together and I am the only one that nobody, I mean NOBODY wants to get to know. I find it sad. It reminds me of my ex-girlfriend. the only one I have ever had. It’s like I did everything you could do to keep her, yet she STILL left me in the dust and cheated on me. I don't know what people have against me. the repair guy at my apartment complex wants to make it his mission to have me evicted and when I call the police officers on him the Police officer calls me "Neo" and laughs at me. It’s just sad the way I am treated in this town because I have taken care of a lot of these people’s kids as a Caregiver, I have taken care of a lot of these people’s parents as a care giver. My family also hates me with a PASSION! None of them call me EVER! And like I said before the only reason they call is so they can scratch off a task on the "To-do" list so when the police officers ask them if they call me, they can all say, "Yeah we do he just never responds". Is this how smart good people are treated in this world? Is the world this full of bad evil despicable people? I am beginning to wonder...I just want to be in a digital world. Everybody hates me!

Hi Nerdy People! I haven't posted here in a while about my nerd-life but here goes. LOL! I have been posting in Drug addict forums on YouTube. I don’t know why. It is because with a life like mine going to psych wards 26 times and hated by my family and treated like shit all the time by them. It’s a wonder I didn't do drugs! I mean if the biggest memory you have of your mother is that she tried to use her power as a doctor to have you locked up in a psych ward for life...what can I say about that! That is my mother! I find it hard to swallow that all my family take her side because they all want a big payday when she dies because she is a rich doctor. NONE of my family think it is wrong what my mother is doing to me...NONE! They all take her side because of money...your own blood! Blood IS Never thicker than water and as you get older you will find out that it is blood that will be your worst enemy. I am just thankful and glad that I escaped that hellhole of a house where my mother and father tried every witchcraft spell in the spell book to destroy me. the final one was when my mother used her motherly love to convince me I was gay...the slash on my right wrist. Nobody really likes my mother, yet nobody wants to go against her because she is rich, and everybody just wants a piece of the action. But I digress! As I have been posting on the forums, I tell these drug addicts that it is possible with faith to conquer your abusive family and as a god-fearing person you will have to be persecuted it won't be a comfortable ride. You must walk the line to go to heaven. They use the typical druggie or ex-druggie arguing tactics of that I am "Self-Righteous" or "Judgmental". People seriously have no mind of their own I swear they just use what someone else said and say it. I have also gotten over my firing at Omni Family Health. As a god-fearing man NOBDOY will like you and you must come to accept that. I am hesitant to get another job because I might get treated like I was at Omni there too. So, I will take a break for a while and do some gaming. This world is an evil place and I want no part of it! MAHALLO!