Hi all!!! Nobody reads this but I say that anyway...don’t know why?? Anyway, I have been working at my Group home job for a while now and I have been scheduled on Crisis Watch on some individuals. As I am scheduled with these clients, I get into little on the downlow ego battles with the staff. I try not to but I have a lot of experience in this field so I cannot help it. I have to say something because every time I am scheduled as Crisis and Violent Behavior Specialist the Violent Behavior ceases, so I had to tell their Supervisor Rosemary about what I have observed the Staff do to the client on Crisis. His name is Jacob! I honestly like him. He just needs someone to talk to and nobody talks to him except to tell him he can’t do this, and he can’t do that. Jacob is so done with life that he just wants to eat himself to death. Which is sad. I mean a 26-year-old man who is done with life and just wants to eat himself to death. When I see these types of things at work it makes me not want to complain about anything in my life. I am Chosen and have a tortured life but to be deaf and treated like that in a Group Home is hard. With all the hours I am getting at my job I have been making money and not thinking about my relationship with my family and how bad it is. Again, the life of a Chosen is equal parts good and equal parts hella bad, and I am about 90 percent sure I am a Chosen one. My client from my previous job Elias wants me to work with him too! I am in demand now! I can't be in 2 places at one time. It’s a good problem to have. I feel bad for Elias my other clients at my other job but as a Caregiver you must compartmentalize and not let it get to you... Till Next time.... MAHALLO!!!!

Hello People!!! Just checking in and talking about my pathetic life! LOL! I just got scheduled at another group home called McClellan Group Home and again I am running into issues with people for no reason other than the way I look. They make "gay Innuendo" remarks and jokes at me. This is nothing new for me as a Good-looking man that I am, I will be FORCED to always take it up the ass by everybody. I also get the vibe that they think that I never go outside ever which again is code for "You are gay". I can't stand people and their big egos. They simply don't have the work ethic that I do in the gym to run 4 miles on the treadmill and do a full body workout 3 times a day. That is the difference between me and everybody else! I respect someone more capable than me. I see it all the time in the gym, where someone is better than me, so I am used to it! These other people and their egos cannot accept that someone such as myself is simply better than them. Every time I go out the levels of hate I get...the laughter at me like I am somehow funny when I am not. As a Chosen you give off Movie actor or actress vibes and these people who could also get those vibes if they work hard are simply too lazy to get them like I do so instead of respect me for my work ethic and give credit where credit is due, they hate and envy me. Which is why they will never have it! The Path of a Chosen is a blessing and a curse! On a light er note I am getting a lot of hours at my job and will get some SERIOUS overtime on my check on Friday. Which is good as I must repair my car. My car is a Ford Focus 2012 SEL Sedan and is extremely expensive to repair so most of the money I earned this month will be spent repairing it. It just seems that lately every time I get on track to having $20,000.00 in my savings something happens where I must spend and then BOOM! Setback! At least my ROTH IRA is in particularly decent shape. Well, here’s to having good vibes at work. Unfortunately, with people the way they are that will not be likely... MAHALLO!

Hi People!!! I have been thinking about how my family treats me and I get filled with this inner rage lately. My life has been a very exceedingly difficult one, but God has been looking out for me and I have never been homeless yet! Because of the way my family treats me, I have extremely low self-esteem and being able to talk to a woman or even have friends in this mental state is exceedingly difficult. On a lighter note, I have been working well, doing a lot of overtime! At this rate I will never have kids or a family so at this point I will just take care of myself and hope that when I am too old to work that I can survive...somewhere. I make sure to never drink or whatnot as I don't want to destroy my mentality for when I am old. The job that I have now, I should be able to save $20,000.00 in savings which is my goal and of course $20,000.00 in retirement. Around a week ago I got into it with a co-worker at work. I always have this problem with people, like my mere presence just irks them to the point that they will verbally attack me. I had a meeting about said incident at the office and I hope my days aren't numbered at California Mentor. I mean I really don't get paid a lot at the job, but they give me a lot of overtime which makes up for the low pay rate. Add the fact that I really don't spend much and I should reach my financial goals. Again, I can't help but think of what my family has done to me. I know now they are not family, and it is very traumatizing to realize that your own family will backstab you due to the pettiest reason. Not just backstab you but want you dead! I have learned now that family or blood is never thicker than water and, in the end, it is family that will do the worst to you without blinking an eye! Till next time! MAHALLO!