Another week, another blog post from the biggest nerd in town. I often feel this way because it seems that people never engage me in conversation. I haven't found a clear answer, but many individuals, especially men, appear to engage in silent competitions with me. Today at Starbucks, a young guy kept giving me strange looks. Every time he went to the bathroom, he seemed to glare at me as if I were his enemy, even though I hadn’t done anything to him. I was simply sitting there playing video games on my laptop. I noticed him talking to a girl, and I felt that she might be interested in talking to me but was using him as a way to reach out. I could be mistaken, of course; maybe I’m just imagining things. It’s also possible that the young guy saw me as competition for girls at Starbucks. Honestly, I'm not in competition with anyone at Starbucks. I prefer the atmosphere there because it helps me play video games better. When I'm outside, it feels like I'm in a silent competition with everyone—who's the better person, who's the most energetic, or who uses their computer the best. It seems that people feel insecure around me and feel the need to compete. I think this is part of being a "Chosen One." As Tren Genius says in his YouTube videos, being a "Chosen One" brings out everyone's demons, leading to extreme reactions towards you. People tend to either have very positive or very negative feelings about you, with little in between. I kept thinking about that young guy, and I realized that if he is secretly competing with me, he must know that I am 51 years old. Competing wiht someone my age must be the most pathetic thing for a young person, and it only boosts my ego. To all those younger guys trying to compete with me, they need to understand that I am in a different stage of life. Their jealousy just elevates my self-esteem. Competing with younger people at 51 makes me feel great, whether I win or lose. I hope they realize that, but I doubt they do. If they don’t, I won’t be the one to inform them. Anyway, I am now actively looking for a job. On Wednesday, I applied to all available jobs online and on job boards, and I plan to continue this every Wednesday. I wonder if I will see more boys or men, 10 to 20 years younger than me, competing with me at Starbucks as I apply for jobs. How flattering! LOL!