Hi all! Another nerdy post from the biggest nerd in Bakersfield LOL! I have been out of a job for a while now, and I am kind of wondering if I will ever find another one again. I have been considering potential outcomes in case I am unable to secure employment, such as not receiving an extension on my unemployment benefits, exhausting my savings, or facing homelessness. My life is a testament to how workaholic parents who are caught in the rat race really don't give a damn about their kids, only themselves. Either that or I am the scapegoat in the family that is supposed to be on drugs living in a drug den, but since I never drink or smoke or DO drugs, they just want to get rid of me. Someone must answer for the family's wrongdoings, right? Someone needs to be blamed for the family's problems, right? I am beginning to think that I really wasn't supposed to live this long, let alone be a certified medical assistant capable of making $42.00 an hour. That does not compute for a scapegoat, right? I mean, scapegoats are supposed to barely make it and struggle. I swear, narcissistic families. They always pick the people who could be great in life as the fall guy for all their issues. I am so glad I woke up to it in time because my family was willing to finish me off and used sex as a weapon to convince me I was gay to get me to commit suicide. Because I really don't fit the image that my mother and father want, right? I mean, they can't show me in public because their jealousy and hatred of me will show in public, and people will wonder why they seem to hate me. My sister-in-law had the same question. Why doesn't my brother ever talk to me? Or why does my whole family seem to ignore me? She wondered about that whole dynamic in my family. I am amazed that I never did drugs despite enduring psychological abuse. I really think I deserve a medal, but no, I won't get one! People may see my clear complexion and think I'm naive or pampered, but that's far from the truth. I guess once you are a victim of narcissistic abuse, you will then in life attract narcissists in your life that just want to victimize you! Best that I stay alone...alone forever! Anyways! Mahalo!