Hi all! I have been thinking about my life and how isolated I am. It just seems like nobody wants to talk to me...EVER! I don't know what it is. I have been going to this Starbucks in Stockdale and I have been going for years and only 2 to 3 people ever talk to me. And when they do, it’s like a painful experience for them. Like they are just talking to me just so that when I shoot up the place, they can make the excuse that yes, they were talking to the guy he was simply weird and a loner gamer that shot up the place. Not one person ever likes to just come up to me and strike up a conversation. The women don't ever say anything to me ever. In fact, they don't even want to sit next to me...EVER! It’s like the gym I got o. I have been going to this Planet Fitness for almost 7 years and nobody ever says anything to me. In fact, they LOVE to gaslight me. I get verbally insulted every now and again, and I feel that if I don't defend myself, it will lead to them ganging up on me and I will get kicked out of that gym. Every time I go to the gym, this black personal trainer always stares at me, and it isn't a kind stare either. I can't describe the type of stare it is...it’s the same stare I get from the women in Planet Fitness. It’s a stare that is blank. Like they are looking at me blank faced. It creeps me out. I don't know what their problem is. We are truly in the end times! I have long since given up! I mean if even the mentally slow person that goes to Starbucks won't say hi to you and he says hi to everybody then there must be issues with me that people see that I don't. I see a lot of people at Starbucks pairing up and going out together and I am the only one that nobody, I mean NOBODY wants to get to know. I find it sad. It reminds me of my ex-girlfriend. the only one I have ever had. It’s like I did everything you could do to keep her, yet she STILL left me in the dust and cheated on me. I don't know what people have against me. the repair guy at my apartment complex wants to make it his mission to have me evicted and when I call the police officers on him the Police officer calls me "Neo" and laughs at me. It’s just sad the way I am treated in this town because I have taken care of a lot of these people’s kids as a Caregiver, I have taken care of a lot of these people’s parents as a care giver. My family also hates me with a PASSION! None of them call me EVER! And like I said before the only reason they call is so they can scratch off a task on the "To-do" list so when the police officers ask them if they call me, they can all say, "Yeah we do he just never responds". Is this how smart good people are treated in this world? Is the world this full of bad evil despicable people? I am beginning to wonder...I just want to be in a digital world. Everybody hates me!