Hello People!!! Time for yet another entry in my exciting life! I had my therapy appointment today with my psychiatrist. I am beginning to think she doesn't believe a word I say in our sessions. I just get the feeling that she thinks I am a load of crap when I talk to her. I guess as a "Chosen One" which is what I am I will never be understood by anyone including my own psychiatrist. And nobody cares about me at all. It’s like when I go to Starbucks, and nobody acknowledges my existence...nobody cares! Sometimes I feel like nobody notices me in the room or at work because they ignore me or just flat out on the downlow hate me for no reason. It makes me feel bad that people don't seem to like me or the vibe I get from people is "Hostile" for whatever reason I don’t know! I told some of my co-workers at Sevita-California Mentor that I have gained weight, and I am getting fat and that is about the only time they gave me attention! They all laughed at me for it! Then they started talking to me saying things like "Join us in our fatness Leo?" then after saying this stuff they never talked to me again. Thats about the only time anybody ever talks to me, when I fall flat on my face or make a mistake...otherwise nobody cares. At work nobody tries to get to know me personally. They just want to know my flaws or if I’m bad or losing at things that is it. Otherwise, I don't even displace the air! Oh, and if they need help then yes, they will make me do everything while they don't do anything. I need the work, so I have no choice but to do it. I get called "Homo" a lot and "Gay,” but I just must take it like I said, its either that or homelessness. The technician Buoet his name is, made a comment today he said to me "Why are you here?". I respond, "I don't know I've been trying to figure that out since birth." His comment was really a veiled attack/jealousy on me not having kids and what is the purpose of my existence. What am I supposed to do? Commit suicide because I have no kids? Obviously, I don't fit in unlike him so the mere fact that I am not a virgin is all for which I really can hope. As a "Chosen one" you have this love/hate relationship with people. We naturally like people but their attitude towards us makes "Chosen Ones" hate people too. Till next time! MAHALLO!!!