Diary Entry: "Chosen One" Struggles

Hello, fellow nerds! I’m feeling a bit down today. I don’t know… this “Chosen One” thing feels like a heavy burden, especially since everyone I meet either seems to dislike me or wants to compete with me. Fighting unseen battles with those around me is starting to wear me out. On the bright side, I can escape into a game world where I feel more liked and accepted. It’s a refuge from a reality where people seem hostile for no reason. I really need to stop expecting others to be like me and realize that most people aren’t worth getting to know. I should remind myself that I am usually the best person in the room, which is why many people attack me psychologically or give me a hard time. It seems that, especially in the workplace, many people struggle to accept that a single man who has never been married can be a better person than they are. This is part of the resentment I face from married individuals. Marrying for reasons other than love rarely leads to personal growth.  I was with my ex-girlfriend because she had a certain glow at Sears, and I felt compelled to be with her. I don’t know why she radiated such positivity while working there, but I heard a voice say, maybe God, I don’t know, “She is the one for you, Leo.” So even though I’ve only had one girlfriend for eight years, I still am a better person than many married individuals. What does modern marriage even mean nowadays in the 21st century? It often seems like a facade, where people try to project a perfect image, but underneath, they’re just pretending. Being authentic and loving your partner leads to personal growth and happiness.  Though my girlfriend left, I remain someone who understands true love better than most, and I am a better person because of it.  Married people at my job don’t seem to grasp that real love, not superficial or societal expectations, is the foundation of a relationship. They wonder how I, as a single man without a wife or children, can be happy. But when you connect with the person you were meant to be with, it strengthens you—mentally, physically, and emotionally—regardless of the ups and downs. Or whether she is, or you are a woman. He leaves you. You can set someone free if you truly love them, even if it means losing them. As a single man without a wife, kids, or a house, I find myself significantly happier than 99% of those who are supposedly happily married. Many of them entered marriage out of social obligation or to have children, not waiting for the right person that God intended for them. True love and a meaningful relationship shouldn't be merely life objectives.   Anyway, till next time! Mamba out!