Hi Fellow Nerds! LOL! Another week, another blog post. I was supposed to start work next week on the 5th of May, but my job at Redwood Group Home has postponed my start date to the 12th or 14th. I guess my appointments on the 5th made them reconsider. I hope this doesn’t negatively affect my job or create a bad impression with management. Sometimes, as a “Chosen One,” I feel like how people perceive me might lead them to think poorly of me. Oh well, we’ll see. I also have a phone meeting with E.D.D. regarding my termination from Sevita-California Mentor. I’m starting to feel like they’ve made up their minds to deny me unemployment benefits! It’s frustrating because I believe I was a good employee—I showed up on time and did my job to the best of my ability. Yet, it seems like some people there just didn't like me. I don’t get it. Now I have to prove that I didn’t make false statements when I said I didn't leave Ruben in a shower chair fastened with a seatbelt. In my opinion, mistakes happen in healthcare settings. If a minor mistake occurs and no harm comes to the client, why should that be a fireable offense? There’s a client at Kroll House who is left alone on the toilet for 30 minutes—even though he is immobile. If they’re going to fire me for the minor issue with Ruben, then all the staff at Kroll House should face the same consequences, because they do this every single day! I really feel like we “Chosen Ones” face unnecessary cruelty at work. It's getting to the point where I dread going in. My experience at Sevita-California Mentor has felt like being accused of something criminal over a minimum wage job that shouldn’t even matter that much. It’s disheartening; people have become so untrustworthy nowadays, even in healthcare. Sometimes it feels like, if you’re a “Chosen One,” even your own family might turn against you. That reminds me of the verse from the Bible, Luke 14:26, “He who does not hate his own life and family cannot be my disciple.” I didn’t realize living by that verse would be so difficult. If I lose the E.D.D. hearing on the 5th, I will have to pay back all the E.D.D. benefits I received. I’m not sure how I would manage that—maybe I could ask them to accept a monthly check, since I only make minimum wage and am not a millionaire! I hope they will understand if I lose the hearing. I doubt it’ll go poorly, but you never know; sometimes I feel like being a “Chosen One” might be a disadvantage in situations like this. Honestly, I’m pretty nervous about it. If I do end up losing, I’d have to arrange repayments to E.D.D. in small monthly installments because I’m certainly not going to pay back everything at once; I need my savings to survive! Anyways Mahalo! =(!