Hello everyone! The nerdiest guy in Bakersfield is back again. I've just started a new job and have been working there for about two weeks. So far, I can sense hostility from my co-workers. This is what happens when you have God in your heart, and others don't; people tend to resent you on the down-low. I wouldn't be surprised if my co-workers wanted me fired. Every time I go to work, no one engages me in conversation, and I often find myself isolated in the corner with my client Chris. I had a conversation with my co-worker Michael about scientific topics, and I can't help but feel it was just a way to butter me up so I would crack his Theorem account, which had $500 in it. I’m convinced that my co-workers think I’m weird and don’t want to associate with me—much like my family. None of them ever want to be near me and seem to intentionally isolate me. I believe isolation and doubt are tools of the devil, and people can be quite thoughtless. They constantly try to compete with me, even when I’m not competing with them. I just want to get along with people, but no matter how nice I am, I feel a lingering hatred for myself everywhere I go. Every conversation feels like it has an ulterior motive, and it’s rarely to genuinely get to know me, just like my conversation with Mike. I sensed he just wanted to butter me up to access his Theorem account. When you feel like a "chosen one," it’s easy to think that people see you as a target to use, and then they quickly isolate you. It hurts because I genuinely like people. As Tren Genius said, "Nothing can go right unless you like people, damn it!" However, I’m convinced that 99 percent of what my co-workers say to me is false. For instance, I told my 18-year-old co-worker Gus that I had to pay rent today and that it was frustrating. He replied that he also had to pay rent soon. I could tell from his tone that he was likely lying; either he lives with his parents or they pay for his apartment. In another conversation with Anthony, he claimed to have made over $100,000 last year, but I didn’t believe him. If you made that much, why would you work a night shift at a minimum wage job? It just doesn’t make sense. I think my appearance as a "chosen one" leads people to see me as a naïve kid. Since most people are narcissistic and focused on looks, they see me and assume I’m younger than I am, despite telling them I’m 51. I became responsible for my drinking and smoking at a young age, which has resulted in my youthful appearance. Because of this, I often get disrespected and treated like an 18-year-old. People can be really disappointing, and I find myself growing increasingly frustrated with them. Anyways till next time Mahalo!