Hi everyone! Here’s another post from your favorite nerd! I wanted to share some thoughts from my diary. So far, I’ve been doing well at my job, but I can’t shake the feeling that people are low-key watching me when I'm not looking. It seems like they see me as a threat to something. I’m genuinely concerned because some of the supervisors tend to stare at me when I’m not aware. I hope they understand that I’m not trying to take their jobs; I don’t want that responsibility! I’d much rather work two jobs than be promoted and face more stress and responsibility. It worries me that the higher-ups might perceive me as a threat, which is definitely not a good situation to be in since it could lead to getting fired. I need this job to pay off my E.D.D. overpayment. Even my co-workers, who are at the same rank as me, seem to glance at me when I’m not paying attention. The looks almost seem like awe, as if they’re seeing someone otherworldly. I can’t help but think they might see me as weird, especially because they tend to exclude me from socializing. Maybe they have something to hide—I’m not sure. Additionally, I can’t shake the feeling that there's some hostility towards me from my co-workers. Every time I clock in, I sense it. It’s clear when someone views you as an enemy; they just clock in, sit down, and don’t say a word, as if they’re preparing for a competition, and I’m the opposing team. It’s frustrating because I’m just trying to work and earn money to play video games, yet it feels like a contest between us. On a brighter note, I seem to get along really well with clients. They’re usually not caught up in societal games and are easy to talk to. However, when I engage with my co-workers, there’s this underlying sense that “I’m competing with you, Leo,” and it bothers me! Why can’t we work together and tackle problems as a team so we can all succeed? Instead, it feels like everyone wants to be number one and push others aside. Just recently, I noticed Angel and Emily keeping their distance while passing out meds, as if they were trying to stay at least 10 feet away from me, almost like I had a disease. I sensed they were watching me and made some comments implying that I have a lot of energy. I’ve watched many "Chosen One" videos, and one theory states that people with a high energy field, who are close to God, can repel those with a lower energy field. The issue is that those with authority at my job are not the ones feeling this energy, so if they wish to exclude me from conversations, I guess I have to just accept it. Although I have co-workers, I feel like I work alone. I hope this isn’t a sign that they want to get rid of me, like what has happened in many of my previous jobs. If I do get let go, I’ll have to rely on E.D.D. unemployment and food stamps, which I can manage because I’m efficient with my bills. However, I might have to pay off my E.D.D. overpayment in one go, which would significantly impact my savings. Being alone without savings can be quite challenging, and I just really hope I don’t get fired.