Hi People!!! I have been thinking about how my family treats me and I get filled with this inner rage lately. My life has been a very exceedingly difficult one, but God has been looking out for me and I have never been homeless yet! Because of the way my family treats me, I have extremely low self-esteem and being able to talk to a woman or even have friends in this mental state is exceedingly difficult. On a lighter note, I have been working well, doing a lot of overtime! At this rate I will never have kids or a family so at this point I will just take care of myself and hope that when I am too old to work that I can survive...somewhere. I make sure to never drink or whatnot as I don't want to destroy my mentality for when I am old. The job that I have now, I should be able to save $20,000.00 in savings which is my goal and of course $20,000.00 in retirement. Around a week ago I got into it with a co-worker at work. I always have this problem with people, like my mere presence just irks them to the point that they will verbally attack me. I had a meeting about said incident at the office and I hope my days aren't numbered at California Mentor. I mean I really don't get paid a lot at the job, but they give me a lot of overtime which makes up for the low pay rate. Add the fact that I really don't spend much and I should reach my financial goals. Again, I can't help but think of what my family has done to me. I know now they are not family, and it is very traumatizing to realize that your own family will backstab you due to the pettiest reason. Not just backstab you but want you dead! I have learned now that family or blood is never thicker than water and, in the end, it is family that will do the worst to you without blinking an eye! Till next time! MAHALLO!

Hi People!!! I am already getting in trouble at work. I can just feel the hatred of me when I go into work. The hate...the jealousy of the way I look. They don't care that I am a good or bad worker because most people are all about looks. LOL! It’s funny because in life I have noticed that the people that go through life ABSOLUTELY OBSESSESED by the way they look are the ones that will end up not looking so good when they are older, and the ones that are not so obsessed by the way they look usually are the ones that end up looking good as they age. It’s like a demonic practical joke on Narcissistic people obsessed by looks. I learned ages ago that good people, saints, will end up looking great as they age, and bad people narcissists will end up looking AWFUL as they age. Anyway, I am already getting hate from women no less, co-worker women who compete with looks with a man which to me is ridiculous. Me personally I will never compete with a woman or ever be jealous of a woman, a man, but not a woman. I had an incident yesterday with a female co-worker who was just jealous of the way I look because in her mind I look 10 times better than her. Again, it’s sad to see narcissist such as this woman age. They usually don't age well. Me, I am not a narcissist like her so of course I look better. When you don't walk around thinking about how you look constantly you are the one that looks the best, but I digress. I just started at the job and a bunch of insecure arrogant women who want to compete with a man me with looks wants to get rid of me because to her work is just a beauty pageant. I swear I hate people so much! SLIME! I am just trying to work and everybody else is marching in a beauty pageant, IMMATURE! It gets annoying! NEWSFLASH! I AM NOT COMPETING WITH YOU YOU ARE A WOMAN! I told a co-worker today that I am seriously considering getting disability and making the excuse that the way I look makes me incapable of holding on to a job. She laughed.... I didn't! Again.... I HATE PEOPLE!!!!

Hello all!!! I have been working at my job now for a bit and so far, so good, but I say that at every job. Again, I am beginning to think I am the “Chosen One" and that my co-workers will eventually get jealous at my job and then fired for no reason like every other job I have had. Every job I get I will get people that fake like they are my "friend" and will start to give bad advice. Like for example at this job at California Mentor, they want to give me the advice that I should get a girlfriend, which is just code for "We are jealous of the fact that you Leo seem to have a lot of money and we think that if you had a girlfriend and popped out kids, you would be poor like us" again people don't realize that I am just better with money than them. They arrogantly think that it is because I don't have kids, well, a lot of people don't have kids. I entertain this type of fake advice pretending to tell them that I have a lot of issues that is why I should not be with a girl, but the reality is that I have already had a serious relationship with a woman and that I am just above them in level because they have yet to show the opposite sex love. I have already loved and lost. At California Mentor there is one staff that gives me issues already! I haven't been on the job for a month yet and the hate and jealousy is already happening! She tried to say I killed all the clients because I made a mistake on the job. The reality is that just because I look like a 20-year-old, doesn't mean that if you stress me out, I will cry like a 20-year-old. So, when she said I killed all the clients due to my mistake I didn't even react. I mean if you make a mistake that is why there are 2 staff so the other can catch the mistake! DUH! Again, my days are numbered at California Mentor like they are at all my jobs due to ego and pride that my co-workers have and their view of me being somehow better than them. Again, most people think life is a game and the person winning at it needs to be brought down to their level. I HATE PEOPLE! BOTS!!!!