Hi all! Here goes my Nerdy Post again, LOL! I got a new job this week at Redwood Group Home. I think I will do okay there. Hopefully, there are no unstable individuals at that facility, but you never know; there are unpredictable people everywhere now. I really nailed the interview and said all the right things during it, so I got the job just 5 minutes into the interview. I mean, it's understandable; I have around 20 years of experience. I will also receive a pay increase because I am DSP-1 certified. I should really get my DSP-2, but I don't know; I probably don't need it because I get paid a lot as a caregiver anyway as a DSP-1. Well, a lot in caregiver terms. I hope this job will be an improvement over my previous ones.  I think as a "Chosen One,' people think I am arrogant due to me being smarter than them, or maybe I am evil, but that is not the case for truly smart people. A truly smart person is smart because he is not arrogant and not evil. God gives intellect to his best disciples and his most humble servants, and like I said, I think some of my problem with people is that they think I am arrogant and evil because in TV shows and in other places they've encountered smart people that thought they were better than everyone else and were also evil. To attain next-level intelligence, humility and servitude to God are essential.  I don't think people truly understand that. Anyway, that is a whole other topic that I could go on and on about. I also got picked to work for the state, which is way more pay than a caregiver. If I get hired as a state-certified medical assistant, I plan to quit my caregiver job and work for the state, earning about $5,000 a month. This is a substantial amount for me due to my financial efficiency.  I will be rolling! I just hope I don't get a lot of hate from either job. Caregiving or Certified Medical Assisting. I need to be more careful with people and avoid revealing too much about my finances next time.  I think as a "chosen one," I will just get hate no matter what I do. We are viewed as better people than them, so they verbally assault us. It would be ok if I didn't like people. But I like people, so it hurts to always be public enemy #1 everywhere you go. This situation is disappointing. Anyways! mahalo

Hi all! Another nerdy post from the biggest nerd in Bakersfield LOL! I have been out of a job for a while now, and I am kind of wondering if I will ever find another one again. I have been considering potential outcomes in case I am unable to secure employment, such as not receiving an extension on my unemployment benefits, exhausting my savings, or facing homelessness. My life is a testament to how workaholic parents who are caught in the rat race really don't give a damn about their kids, only themselves. Either that or I am the scapegoat in the family that is supposed to be on drugs living in a drug den, but since I never drink or smoke or DO drugs, they just want to get rid of me. Someone must answer for the family's wrongdoings, right? Someone needs to be blamed for the family's problems, right? I am beginning to think that I really wasn't supposed to live this long, let alone be a certified medical assistant capable of making $42.00 an hour. That does not compute for a scapegoat, right? I mean, scapegoats are supposed to barely make it and struggle. I swear, narcissistic families. They always pick the people who could be great in life as the fall guy for all their issues. I am so glad I woke up to it in time because my family was willing to finish me off and used sex as a weapon to convince me I was gay to get me to commit suicide. Because I really don't fit the image that my mother and father want, right? I mean, they can't show me in public because their jealousy and hatred of me will show in public, and people will wonder why they seem to hate me. My sister-in-law had the same question. Why doesn't my brother ever talk to me? Or why does my whole family seem to ignore me? She wondered about that whole dynamic in my family. I am amazed that I never did drugs despite enduring psychological abuse. I really think I deserve a medal, but no, I won't get one! People may see my clear complexion and think I'm naive or pampered, but that's far from the truth. I guess once you are a victim of narcissistic abuse, you will then in life attract narcissists in your life that just want to victimize you! Best that I stay alone...alone forever! Anyways! Mahalo!

Dear All, I have been doing well lately although being a ‘Chosen One” isn’t exactly a cakewalk LOL! I spoke with someone at Planet Fitness who mentioned they used to stream on Twitch, had 500 followers, and was an affiliate. I suspected he was making it all up, but I played along. He didn’t seem like the type that was technically inclined enough to do Twitch. He also said that my being a gamer has made me, and I quote “Anti-Social” I just agreed with him as I didn’t want to make a fuss although in my head I was saying “People assume as a gamer that I have never been anywhere, OK? They only want to know me to betray me. That’s why I don’t talk to people”. It is very frustrating when people treat me this way. I don’t know why they do it too. I don’t know why they do it too. They have a fake conversation with me and pretend to be well-versed in something only to have an ulterior motive. I will make sure not to talk to that guy again. He seemed like a man with kids which is why I doubted that he even does twitch. Like I said he probably just wanted to make up a story. People are so fake nowadays I swear and when you are not fake like I am you tend to be isolated as nobody wants to be exposed as the faker that they are. I also had an interview today with Aimes Supportive Services. I hope it went well. I kind of think that I went off on tangents in the interview and didn’t focus on his questions. I hope they view me as a qualified worker. I went to the doctor today. My blood test results were excellent, but I'm low on some medication levels. I am glad I am low on it because those meds just seem to slow me down and I don’t like them to be honest. If I could just stop taking them ever again, I would be a lot happier but if I do that I will be chained to a bed, and it will be injected into me. It's my doctor’s mother's legacy for me to be medicated till I die so that she is #1 in intelligence. My mother just cannot accept that her son is smarter than her. She just must be the best at everything otherwise she will use her doctor’s credentials and put you on medication and zonk you out then when you are zonked out you can’t think, and she becomes the intelligent one. It's sad and pathetic to be a narcissist like my mother. She must win everything effortlessly, or she'll remove you from the family, as she did to me. I doubt I will see my mother again ever. She competes with me instead of loving me like a mother should love her son. I am always the enemy. A rich and powerful person like my mother competing with a minimum-wage worker is laughably sad and pathetic. Until next time. Mahalo!

Another week, another blog post from the biggest nerd in town. I often feel this way because it seems that people never engage me in conversation. I haven't found a clear answer, but many individuals, especially men, appear to engage in silent competitions with me. Today at Starbucks, a young guy kept giving me strange looks. Every time he went to the bathroom, he seemed to glare at me as if I were his enemy, even though I hadn’t done anything to him. I was simply sitting there playing video games on my laptop. I noticed him talking to a girl, and I felt that she might be interested in talking to me but was using him as a way to reach out. I could be mistaken, of course; maybe I’m just imagining things. It’s also possible that the young guy saw me as competition for girls at Starbucks. Honestly, I'm not in competition with anyone at Starbucks. I prefer the atmosphere there because it helps me play video games better. When I'm outside, it feels like I'm in a silent competition with everyone—who's the better person, who's the most energetic, or who uses their computer the best. It seems that people feel insecure around me and feel the need to compete. I think this is part of being a "Chosen One." As Tren Genius says in his YouTube videos, being a "Chosen One" brings out everyone's demons, leading to extreme reactions towards you. People tend to either have very positive or very negative feelings about you, with little in between. I kept thinking about that young guy, and I realized that if he is secretly competing with me, he must know that I am 51 years old. Competing wiht someone my age must be the most pathetic thing for a young person, and it only boosts my ego. To all those younger guys trying to compete with me, they need to understand that I am in a different stage of life. Their jealousy just elevates my self-esteem. Competing with younger people at 51 makes me feel great, whether I win or lose. I hope they realize that, but I doubt they do. If they don’t, I won’t be the one to inform them. Anyway, I am now actively looking for a job. On Wednesday, I applied to all available jobs online and on job boards, and I plan to continue this every Wednesday. I wonder if I will see more boys or men, 10 to 20 years younger than me, competing with me at Starbucks as I apply for jobs. How flattering! LOL!