Hello People!!! I had a good week this week. I am getting a lot of hours at my job, and I should have a good check this coming December 6th, 2024. I will buy something I don’t know. I might get an Alienware Laptop on sale on eBay. I was thinking about it...we'll see! As far as my Chosen One problem so far, it’s been the same. People have this underlying hostility towards me for no reason. Like for example today it just seems like the med passer I was working with did not want to talk to me. The whole shift she never really said anything to me...AT ALL!!! Also, an old co-worker came to visit, and he looked good for his age and was recognized for it and was given credit for taking vitamins. He is 57 years old. I am 50 years old and look like I can start for an NFL team as a Free Safety, and I never get that recognition...AT ALL!!! It’s the plight of the Chosen! We will never get recognition for our accomplishments, and we will never get noticed! It’s like the world has an automatic ignore button and it’s always pressed when The Chosen are in the room! Nobody has ever given me recognition for looking 25 at 50...not only that but HIGHLY ATHELTIC which is a SERIOUS ACCOMPLISHMENT in Bakersfield because to achieve this, you must abstain from all substances which takes a lot out of you and is quite tortuous, yet nobody gives us credit! I keep thinking about when I told my co-workers at Columbia that I am gaining weight, and they all just laughed and said to "Join them in fatness". No credit for staying in shape all this time while working at California Mentor or anything. As a Chosen you feel like you go through life by yourself! No one even noticing you even exist or displace the air...it’s sad. It’s to the point now where I just don't want to go out because I have zero self-image and self-esteem...but I must trudge on...I have no choice bills need to be paid regardless of if anybody recognizes my good works or not. They never will TILL NEXT TIME! MAHALLO!

Hello People!!! Time for yet another entry in my exciting life! I had my therapy appointment today with my psychiatrist. I am beginning to think she doesn't believe a word I say in our sessions. I just get the feeling that she thinks I am a load of crap when I talk to her. I guess as a "Chosen One" which is what I am I will never be understood by anyone including my own psychiatrist. And nobody cares about me at all. It’s like when I go to Starbucks, and nobody acknowledges my existence...nobody cares! Sometimes I feel like nobody notices me in the room or at work because they ignore me or just flat out on the downlow hate me for no reason. It makes me feel bad that people don't seem to like me or the vibe I get from people is "Hostile" for whatever reason I don’t know! I told some of my co-workers at Sevita-California Mentor that I have gained weight, and I am getting fat and that is about the only time they gave me attention! They all laughed at me for it! Then they started talking to me saying things like "Join us in our fatness Leo?" then after saying this stuff they never talked to me again. Thats about the only time anybody ever talks to me, when I fall flat on my face or make a mistake...otherwise nobody cares. At work nobody tries to get to know me personally. They just want to know my flaws or if I’m bad or losing at things that is it. Otherwise, I don't even displace the air! Oh, and if they need help then yes, they will make me do everything while they don't do anything. I need the work, so I have no choice but to do it. I get called "Homo" a lot and "Gay,” but I just must take it like I said, its either that or homelessness. The technician Buoet his name is, made a comment today he said to me "Why are you here?". I respond, "I don't know I've been trying to figure that out since birth." His comment was really a veiled attack/jealousy on me not having kids and what is the purpose of my existence. What am I supposed to do? Commit suicide because I have no kids? Obviously, I don't fit in unlike him so the mere fact that I am not a virgin is all for which I really can hope. As a "Chosen one" you have this love/hate relationship with people. We naturally like people but their attitude towards us makes "Chosen Ones" hate people too. Till next time! MAHALLO!!!

Heya People! Fellow Chosen ones! I have yet to meet another Male Chosen One in Bakersfield. Every guy I have ever met in Bakersfield is either an Alcoholic or an alcoholic in denial (I am not a drunk I just drink for fun on the weekends!). I have seen a few females Chosen ones one at Starbucks and one at my former job. The one at my former job was young so she may not be aware she is a Chosen. The one that came into Starbucks, the energy that came off her, you notice her a mile away! She came in no nonsense, all dark colored wardrobe, and ordered a small black coffee...no sugar...The mark of a Chosen! I kept thinking she must deal with a lot of male co-workers that constantly hit on her and it must secretly offend her. I have yet to see a Male Chosen in Bakersfield but then again Bakersfield is the most alcoholic town in all the United States, and I would say that 90 percent of men in Bakersfield drink and about 80 percent are alcoholics or recovering alcoholics. Once you drink the devil’s juice it changes your character, and you are no longer Chosen! Your energy, your vibe is no longer the same, but that is why it is called the Devil's Juice! I bought some fat burners on Amazon and have been taking them. I do not want to lose this secret on the downlow competition with that 30-year-old bitch who thinks she is the shit! That is easy for you to think! LOL! You have all the money for healthy eating, the support from work, and support from family and friends and help from people you meet at the gym. Me? I just must manifest success and must manifest a win against her. Otherwise, if I were to get fat, everybody (On the downlow of COURSE! LOL!) are going to say in their head "See? Leo, you need to eat healthily! You just look good because you’re GAY! AHAHAHAHAAHAH!". Again, all I wanted to do was get healthy enough to find a woman have kids and work the quickie mart...THAT IS ALL I WANTED IN LIFE!!!! Nobody wanted to help me! So, I had to manifest my athleticism, manifest success from minimum wage jobs (who in America can say they are a success on minimum wage??? WHO??) but nobody cares and instead of saying "Good Job Leo!" or "Great work!” they just call me (On the Downlow) "You are gay!" and they start to compete with me! Now you understand I do intermittent fasting because it is HELLA CHEAPER!! Then eat healthily! I am not trying to prove that junk is better than your lettuce, ok? Just trying to be healthy to find a girl and survive long enough to work myself to death! When you are Chosen, everybody is against you and nobody roots for you, and above all....NOBODY CARES!!!!

Hi all, you People! I have come to realize that not only are people faking like they like me at work, but they want to get me fired too. The other day I was working with this one lady. She was about 30 years old and worked out. The other co-workers made some comments that indirectly led me to believe that they want her to compete with me with energy and athletics on the job. Again, I do intermittent fasting because I don't have the money to buy expensive healthy foods that she can but, I am in this secret competition with her. Now I have an arthritic back and arthritic knee, but nobody cares! They want a competition! AND THEY WANT ME TO FAIL SO THEY CAN LAUGH AT ME! I know everybody in my job wants me to fail this imaginary competition because I am the weirdo of the job that says oddball stuff and should shut the fuck up, I know that’s what they think. One of my co-workers is intentionally cooking and intentionally putting it right smack in the middle of the fridge so I will see it. I also know that everybody has noticed that I have gained weight. They keep their notice of me gaining weight on the downlow, but I know they notice, and, in their head, they hare laughing at me. I find it sad that originally, I wanted to get fit to find a girl and instead I am the most hated person wherever I go. All while they were doing this, they were talking shit and smack. Again, everybody wants me to fail in this on the downlow competition rigged against me. Add the fact that I am under stress from what is happening with my family, and I have about a 5% chance of winning this competition rigged HEAVILY against me and they will say "See Leo you need to eat right! AHHAHAAHAHHAH". Also, I was doing a shift at another house, Altaville and for some odd reason they unexpectedly offered me a glass of vitamin enriched drink. I never asked them for it. Again I know they offered it to me because I am in this secret competition with the 30 year old lady who talked trash the whole I time I saw her about how I don't know my job she said "You know Leo, no offense but you've worked here how long and you don't know you’re supposed to put a sling under Jerry?" Who wouldn't take offense to that? Also I was doing my shift at Altaville and a co-worker lunged at me for no reason pretending that she slipped trying to get me to react because I know that the workers at Altaville hate me there too! They know about this secret competition, and they are going to take the side of the 30-year-old woman she is one of the cool kids. The workers at Altaville never said a word to me as I was working there, a sure sign, they don't like me and intentionally put triple the food to feed a client that eats and made me feed her to make me work double hard. Life as a Chosen is not easy, you will be tormented at your job, tormented by your family, tormented by random strangers that can sense your positive energy. You will be randomly eyeballed by people trying to size you up to find your weakness. Walking the line to go to heaven is not an easy task....anyways I needed to get that off my chest...till next time! MAHALLO!

HIYA People!!! I had an eventful week this week! I have been playing XCOM2: War of the Chosen a lot lately, and while I play, I keep thinking about my mother and how she treats me. I am beginning to think she sees me as her grandpa who was a womanizer, or she sees me as my dad who may have treated her badly so now, she takes it out on me. My brother too has a lot of frustrations in life, and he also takes it out on me, but because I seem too tough for them to destroy and when my dad was alive, he too joined in, they have just abandoned me here in Bakersfield. My family invited me to Thanksgiving, and I said to myself, should I go? Or should I work and earn holiday pay? I mean why be around jealous people for the holidays who really don't love you anyway right? When you can get some much-needed dough? I mean as it stands now my mother has properly extorted the whole family against me with inheritance to go against me so I mean why endure a Thanksgiving where everybody hates you when you can earn dough that you might need since you are exempt from inheritance? I need the money so I will not be going to Thanksgiving or be attending any Holidays with my family. They have done nothing for me, and I don't know any of them so why see jealous people? There is a song I forget which one it is that has a line in it that says, "I don't be around jealous hateful people". Which is good advice in my book even if it’s your immediate family. I look back at my childhood and my history with my family and I realize I have no relationship with any of them...AT ALL! It is amazing that someone as isolated as me grew up so normal! I mean I really should have been in some Asian gang by now or dead by suicide with all the psychological abuse I endured plus the zero relationship with my family that I have. I mean I did not have a chance in hell to survive add that my mother and father are doctors, and they can make up any "Mental Illness" I have, and everybody will believe them. I should have been dead by now, either by suicide or insane in a psych ward probably locked up for life in there like my Uncle who also was destroyed by his parents, but like I said his parents where not rich and powerful doctors that have all kinds of money and clout to say that he has some fake mental illness to destroy him. It is a testament to my resilience and fortitude, as well as my determination to not be destroyed by rich and powerful people that I am so normal. When you are Chosen, Dark Forces align against you...all your life! MAHALLO!