Hello all!!! My week was quite a thrill ride LOL! I bought NBA2k25 a while back and have been playing it quite a bit. I got the Sliders set a think to a good clip and difficulty. My job has been quite a good uneventful! I am on Crisis watch with another Client. We do a lot of studying with him with Philosophy and Math. He is 23 years old and is Autistic! I am beginning to think that my boss might on the downlow think I am Autistic, so he scheduled me with him. Doing Crisis gives me a good chance to get away from the Group Home. There is a lot of lifting when you work at the Gorup Home especially for me since I am the guy on shift whereas on Crisis I am just sitting. My client’s mom looks familiar. She said she went to Bakersfield College so maybe I might have seen her there. She may have been a classmate of mine...I don’t know! She is phenomenally successful and has a big house, a linguistic computer specialist she said. I had my therapy appointment today and I talked about how my mother called me a few days ago. Again, with my mother calling me it wells up a lot of emotions in me. I absolutely hate her and will not be there when she is dying and dead. My therapist says to give my mother a chance, but I never will. You can’t keep giving Narcissists a chance because that is what they want! They rely on you a good person to give the benefit of the doubt so they can take advantage! I need to hold my ground and stick to the plan of never calling her again! I am seriously thinking of filing a restraining order on her to get her to stop calling...I don’t know. I have been having problems with my router ever since they upgraded the service from 300mps download to 400Mps download and I don't think they have gotten all the lines set because my signal is always up and down. Spectrum won't admit that they have a line problem because that would mean wasting time and resources fixing it...Oh Well! I will just have to tell them that I don't think it’s my equipment and they will just have to come to my house! It gets annoying to have a dropped Internet signal in the middle of watching a show...Anyways! Mahalo!!!

Greetings and Mahalo!!! I had a good week this week. I am beginning to think that I will fit in with my Co-Workers. I am still uneasy, but it seems like it is a possibility! I think Alot of working in a Clinic and Hospital is all about hooking up and dating and being in a social click and if you are like me, you are hardworking and dedicated you won't fit in as a C.M.A. Alot of my Co-workers are kids that are simply happy to wear "Grey's Anatomy" Scrubs. I have over 20+ years’ experience in the Health Field and I came into the Heathfield because it is a "Calling" for me. I am dedicated to helping people in their time of need Healthwise. Right now, a lot of my co-workers are all older and married unlike my co-workers in Pain Clinics and Hospitals who are in their 20's. So, I don't get as much verbal assault as I did as a C.M.A. Like in my previous posts it is the "Path of the Chosen". Alot of people are going to like you and for the same reason a lot of people are going to hate you (envy). I haven't gotten yelled at by another co-worker yet at work so maybe I will no longer get that anymore. I keep remembering my 2 contracts in Tehachapi State Prison and how Honey my co-worker wants to find other jobs to gain experience in other things also she wants to work on her accent. I told her to read a lot of books that will help with the accent, and I also gave her a job lead with Carelinx. Hopefully, this is a sign that people at my work are not going to compete with me and keep verbally assaulting me anymore...I hope not. I am just trying to survive...trying to BUST A NUT! LOL! Anyways!!! (that’s what my ex-girlfriend used to say) MAHALLO!!!

Hi all!!! I had an eventful week this week. I told everyone at work how I manage my finances on 15 to 20 dollars an hour and I am getting hated on by my Black co-worker. I think she sees me as either a potential mate or as someone who is living a better life than her because she mentioned to me during a shift that her husband is a truck driver and makes $120,000 a year, and that all you have to do is memorize the layout of the truck and then take a driving test. I know that most truck drivers make about as much as us Care givers. Meaning they don't get paid a lot so she could be lying I don’t know. I just keep wondering why she would mention this. To get rid of me because I make more money than her and her husband and she is jealous? She sees me as a potential mate and doesn't want to be tempted or have her husband worry? I distinctly remember her saying she won't have enough money to take her family to the Fair and she asked me if I was going, I said I might, but I keep playing videogames. This is after I told her I went shopping on Amazon and got a $420.00 detail job on my car. She could be just hating on me because with just my job at Sevita-California Mentor I am able to shop and live my best life and she can't bear to witness me having fun doing it. I also have another meeting with the boss about watching football with Jerry, one of the clients. Gloria, one of the staff told the boss that I was watching football with the clients instead of doing my job. Gloria doesn’t usually work with me, so I don't know what her problem is. I got the OK to watch it from my co-worker on shift Kari to watch it. Also, I just think that since Jerry is a grown man, he would much prefer watching football rather than Gilligan’s Island constantly like a kid. This is the assumption of Narcissistic people that you are a boy if you spend most of your time at home, and this is why Gloria just wants Jerry to watch Gilligan’s Island. Kari went to the boss defending my decision to watch Football with Jerry because I was still getting my work done. When I was scheduled next with Kari, I watched Football with Jerry and just when Gloria was about to clock in, I switched the channel so she wouldn't know. I mean what grown man watches Gilligan’s Island constantly??? You don't need to run the streets to want, as a grown man, to watch football rather than Gilligan’s Island, right? Anyway, till next time MAHALLO!

Hi ALL!!! Another week in my life done! I feel like I am getting older and older. At this stage in my life (I am 50) I can see the end on the horizon. I hope I am good with God and that I have been a good human on earth. I don't have any unhealthy habits like substance abuse or sexual addiction like my brother, so I am in good standing (I hope). My mother tried to call me. I have blocked her from my cellphone and did not answer. I left her a threatening text message, yet she doesn't seem to get the message! She just keeps calling. At this point with all the things she has done to me, the putting in a psych ward for no other reason than that I am smarter than her, the kicking me out of the house for no reason other than I am better looking than her, which is sick for a mother against her son. I text her to start praying for forgiveness for the things she has done. I know that my family will spontaneously show up to my door come Christmas, which I don't appreciate. I wish they wouldn't come at all! It is very painful to see them all try to Gaslight me and talk to me making comments that I am "Crazy". My mother has really poisoned the whole family against me. I will never be there when my mother is dying or dead...I DON'T CARE! On another note, work is doing well. I am having a good relationship with my co-workers good. They mostly try to avoid me in conversations for some reason. Most people I meet try to avoid me, but that is the plight of "The Chosen". I haven't gotten yelled at in a while which usually happens every so often, again, the plight of "the Chosen" people are not going to like you for no reason. the way I see it if I get paid at my job I don't care. I don't think I will last long at my job 1,2 years max. My Aura affects people around me to the point that they will make up stuff to complain about me at the job. Its ok, I have optimized my bills and expenses to the point that I can survive on E.D.D. and Food stamps so I am not worried about losing my job, also usually I qualify for 2 years of E.D.D. as well. For a Chosen I have quite a few possessions in my apartment and a lot of hobbies so I will have things to do when I am out for a job. For a Chosen it is not if you will lose your job, it’s when. Till next time... MAHALLO!