Hello everyone! The nerdiest guy in Bakersfield is back again. I've just started a new job and have been working there for about two weeks. So far, I can sense hostility from my co-workers. This is what happens when you have God in your heart, and others don't; people tend to resent you on the down-low. I wouldn't be surprised if my co-workers wanted me fired. Every time I go to work, no one engages me in conversation, and I often find myself isolated in the corner with my client Chris. I had a conversation with my co-worker Michael about scientific topics, and I can't help but feel it was just a way to butter me up so I would crack his Theorem account, which had $500 in it. I’m convinced that my co-workers think I’m weird and don’t want to associate with me—much like my family. None of them ever want to be near me and seem to intentionally isolate me. I believe isolation and doubt are tools of the devil, and people can be quite thoughtless. They constantly try to compete with me, even when I’m not competing with them. I just want to get along with people, but no matter how nice I am, I feel a lingering hatred for myself everywhere I go. Every conversation feels like it has an ulterior motive, and it’s rarely to genuinely get to know me, just like my conversation with Mike. I sensed he just wanted to butter me up to access his Theorem account. When you feel like a "chosen one," it’s easy to think that people see you as a target to use, and then they quickly isolate you. It hurts because I genuinely like people. As Tren Genius said, "Nothing can go right unless you like people, damn it!" However, I’m convinced that 99 percent of what my co-workers say to me is false. For instance, I told my 18-year-old co-worker Gus that I had to pay rent today and that it was frustrating. He replied that he also had to pay rent soon. I could tell from his tone that he was likely lying; either he lives with his parents or they pay for his apartment. In another conversation with Anthony, he claimed to have made over $100,000 last year, but I didn’t believe him. If you made that much, why would you work a night shift at a minimum wage job? It just doesn’t make sense. I think my appearance as a "chosen one" leads people to see me as a naïve kid. Since most people are narcissistic and focused on looks, they see me and assume I’m younger than I am, despite telling them I’m 51. I became responsible for my drinking and smoking at a young age, which has resulted in my youthful appearance. Because of this, I often get disrespected and treated like an 18-year-old. People can be really disappointing, and I find myself growing increasingly frustrated with them. Anyways till next time Mahalo!

Hi everyone! It's time for another nerdy post from Bakersfield's biggest "Uber Loser" nerd—the perpetual outsider of the town. I just completed another week of training at the office for my job as a DSP caregiver, and it was a very interesting course on CPI training! I learned a lot, and so did my colleagues. I'm still quite guarded around co-workers, but I'm starting to open up a bit. I really hope I can last at least a year in this job since I need to pay bills and I owe E.D.D. a hefty $2,700.00! So far, my co-workers seem pretty okay, although I have said that at every job I’ve had before, only to end up getting fired for no reason and being yelled at. For now, my colleagues seem to get along with me, but I worry that as a “Chosen One,” once they discover more about me, the games will begin! They may realize that I don’t have any significant advantages and that I’m just a genuinely happy person living on minimum wage by making sacrifices (I hope they don’t notice that I don’t go anywhere for lunch). I’m getting some bad vibes from a young admin guy in his 30s. He tries to boss me around, acting like he enjoys telling an older man what to do. Some people are all about status and feel superior simply because they have a title. I’d love to see him in his 50s, perhaps after a few divorces, and making minimum wage—let’s see how energetic and youthful he is then? I bet he wouldn’t be half as vibrant as I am. I’m also sensing weird vibes from another younger male co-worker, but maybe I’m just imagining things. He often offers me food from his Jack in the Box lunch, which comes off as nice but feels a bit insidious. It seems like he might want me to gain weight so that he can be the only slim person at work. Narcissists play these subtle games, where on the surface, it looks like they care, but deep down, they may have ulterior motives. On a different note, I’m still receiving calls for interviews for medical assistant positions at prisons. I hope I land one of those jobs because working in a prison would almost double my income. Like I mentioned earlier, I really need to pay off what I owe E.D.D. for unemployment. Anyway! Mahalo!

Here's another blog post from the nerdiest person in Bakersfield! I can be so nerdy that people yell at me when they see me! Anyway, I started my new job this week at People’s Care-Redwoodfcn. So far, I’ve liked it; there aren’t any rogue staff members who seem to hate me for no reason, but I shouldn’t speak too soon. You can never truly know someone until you get to know them, at least from my experience. As a "Chosen One," people may change their behavior toward you in an instant, especially if your aura seems to outshine theirs. So, I must keep my guard up! In my new role, I've been scheduled with two Black colleagues. I get along with the younger Black guy; he seems really cool. However, the other Black person comes across as a bit crazy. She is a mother, which might explain her behavior, and she is also very religious, which only adds to her craziness. It’s all good though—it’s a kind of "religiously crazy" that I find endearing. I just hope none of my coworkers turn on me and I don’t get fired, then when I am fired, administrators try to deny me E.D.D. benefits like what happened at my last job. That would be a disaster! As I mentioned, I plan to stay cautious for now, avoid talking too much to my coworkers, and not reveal too much about myself. As a "Chosen One," people can often sense your energy, which leads them to decide: do we team up against Leo, or do we befriend Leo and avoid competiting with him? Most people seem to compete to be the best in the room, and since a "Chosen One" is typically the standout, it creates a target on their back. It's similar to being on a winning sports team; everyone tries to bring you down, including family members. I even have a scar on my right wrist because my mother and brother almost did me in! People are constantly trying to compete for supremacy without considering how challenging that existence can be. They fail to realize that being the best or a "Chosen One" often leads to psychological attacks from others around them, resulting in a difficult life. For now, work is going well, despite getting a bad vibe from one of the younger administrators. He looks to be about 25 to 30 years old and has already achieved an administrative position, which many might see as impressive. But when you know the truth, you realize that someone who achieves that much success at such a young age often has stepped on a few people or backstabbed a few along the way. I get the feeling he might be trying to compete with me for everything, even vying for the attention of a female coworker. It feels like he's trying to assert his authority over me, like he is saying, “I’m 25 and an administrator; I’m better than you, Leo. You’re 51 and just a DSP-Caregiver.” This behavior is typical of someone who takes life too seriously. But again, that’s just my sense of things. If I encounter any issues, I suspect it will be with him. Here’s to good working days ahead, and as I always say... Mahalo!

Hello, fellow nerds! It's me again, the biggest nerd in Bakersfield. Honestly, not many people read this, but I mostly write for myself, so bear with me! LOL! I start my new job this Monday, the 12th, and I'm hoping it goes better than my experience at Sevita California Mentor. I have my doubts, though. It seems like I’m always going to be treated poorly, no matter where I am. It's frustrating because I consider myself a good person, but it feels like nowadays, being good means being disliked, while being bad gets you popularity. It’s a sad realization. I recently had an E.D.D. hearing regarding my unemployment claim against Sevita California Mentor. Not only did they want me fired, but they also wish to deny my unemployment benefits! It feels incredibly unfair, especially since I did a lot for that company. I was let go over a minor issue—leaving a client unbuckled in a shower chair during a heated staff debate—when nothing actually happened! No one was injured, and I don’t understand why they would fire someone when no harm was done. But this seems to be the fate of “The Chosen”: always facing criticism. If you go even one mile over the speed limit, the police will be on high alert. If you take up a bit too much space at Starbucks, the staff will ask you to move. And even when you’re just enjoying a video game, people may feel entitled to criticize you for not “using your intelligence” to pursue a more traditional career. It feels like I’m being pushed to stay indoors, and everything I do is wrong! And this negative treatment doesn’t just come from strangers; it starts with family! There’s often a sense of displeasure from them as well, which can lead to low self-esteem and struggles in personal relationships, like finding a girlfriend or having a fulfilling sex life. I can’t help but think this is somewhat similar to how Jesus might have felt during his time on Earth. Good people have always been disliked, and sadly, that hasn’t changed in the 21st century. On a more positive note, I am excited to start my new part-time job! Although it's not full-time, it’s better than nothing—especially since I owe E.D.D. $1,805 due to the judge’s ruling during my hearing. I need to get to work paying that back; otherwise, I won't be able to receive E.D.D. benefits again. I also received a call from E.D.D. stating that I was overpaid these past few months, so I had to fax over my first and last pay stubs from Sevita. Unfortunately, it looks like I'll owe money due to those overpayments as well. So, right now, I need to find a job ASAP! The good news is that my application for a state-certified medical assisting position has progressed to the interview stage! This is an exciting opportunity as working for the state would provide a higher salary for medical assistants. If I get hired for the state job at the prison, I will likely leave my part-time job at the group home. It feels like there's a lot ahead of me, and I’m eager to catch up on everything. Fingers crossed that I get there! Anyways! Mahalo!

Hi Fellow Nerds! LOL! Another week, another blog post. I was supposed to start work next week on the 5th of May, but my job at Redwood Group Home has postponed my start date to the 12th or 14th. I guess my appointments on the 5th made them reconsider. I hope this doesn’t negatively affect my job or create a bad impression with management. Sometimes, as a “Chosen One,” I feel like how people perceive me might lead them to think poorly of me. Oh well, we’ll see. I also have a phone meeting with E.D.D. regarding my termination from Sevita-California Mentor. I’m starting to feel like they’ve made up their minds to deny me unemployment benefits! It’s frustrating because I believe I was a good employee—I showed up on time and did my job to the best of my ability. Yet, it seems like some people there just didn't like me. I don’t get it. Now I have to prove that I didn’t make false statements when I said I didn't leave Ruben in a shower chair fastened with a seatbelt. In my opinion, mistakes happen in healthcare settings. If a minor mistake occurs and no harm comes to the client, why should that be a fireable offense? There’s a client at Kroll House who is left alone on the toilet for 30 minutes—even though he is immobile. If they’re going to fire me for the minor issue with Ruben, then all the staff at Kroll House should face the same consequences, because they do this every single day! I really feel like we “Chosen Ones” face unnecessary cruelty at work. It's getting to the point where I dread going in. My experience at Sevita-California Mentor has felt like being accused of something criminal over a minimum wage job that shouldn’t even matter that much. It’s disheartening; people have become so untrustworthy nowadays, even in healthcare. Sometimes it feels like, if you’re a “Chosen One,” even your own family might turn against you. That reminds me of the verse from the Bible, Luke 14:26, “He who does not hate his own life and family cannot be my disciple.” I didn’t realize living by that verse would be so difficult. If I lose the E.D.D. hearing on the 5th, I will have to pay back all the E.D.D. benefits I received. I’m not sure how I would manage that—maybe I could ask them to accept a monthly check, since I only make minimum wage and am not a millionaire! I hope they will understand if I lose the hearing. I doubt it’ll go poorly, but you never know; sometimes I feel like being a “Chosen One” might be a disadvantage in situations like this. Honestly, I’m pretty nervous about it. If I do end up losing, I’d have to arrange repayments to E.D.D. in small monthly installments because I’m certainly not going to pay back everything at once; I need my savings to survive! Anyways Mahalo! =(!