I have been reflecting on my time at my last job at Maxim Healthcare. I think I was their best employee, I just get hated on by people in this town for whatever reason. People are ridiculous! They always want to make it seem they are a big deal yet I know they are just a small fry. Its sad that the real hard workers of this Country never get ahead and a bunch of evil lazy asses get everything. I have been watching alot of Youtube lately. It has been the best therapy for me. I have come to realize that the only place I will get advice and real wisdom is from Youtube. Not even my pshychaitrist gives me better advice! My whole family could not careless about me, and I have grown to increasingly not trust them. The only reason they visit me once a year is to see if the torture they are putting me through is making me a drug addict. I told my Niece's "Husband" (Boy-Toy) that my family never has any pictures of me or doesn't know anything about me. So guess what they do? They "Pretend" to visit me "Because they care" (I know they don't) just so they can get pictures of me and copies of my awards to fake to other people that they care, but they don't. I only let them have 2 pictures and I NEVER gave my mother a copy of my awards (which I have many). I am kind of scared but at the same time excited! I am going through life alone! Kind of like the Warrior in Dark Souls. I will have to just trust my intuition and hope that God looks out for me because my family never will. The last call I got from my mother she insinuated she has an Inheritance waiting for me when I get old. I don't believe that for a second! I know for a fact I will be excluded from her will (Only me) just like I was excldued from my brothers wedding for no reason, just like I will be excluded from my nieces wedding for no reason. I word of advice to all the Blacksheep out there..... Stay Sober! then you will graduate to being the ignored one! And if you act like the GOlden Child like I do with alot of awards you will be the Excluded one! The Annoying one! Gordon Freeman out....