Hi all!!! I had an eventful week this week. I told everyone at work how I manage my finances on 15 to 20 dollars an hour and I am getting hated on by my Black co-worker. I think she sees me as either a potential mate or as someone who is living a better life than her because she mentioned to me during a shift that her husband is a truck driver and makes $120,000 a year, and that all you have to do is memorize the layout of the truck and then take a driving test. I know that most truck drivers make about as much as us Care givers. Meaning they don't get paid a lot so she could be lying I don’t know. I just keep wondering why she would mention this. To get rid of me because I make more money than her and her husband and she is jealous? She sees me as a potential mate and doesn't want to be tempted or have her husband worry? I distinctly remember her saying she won't have enough money to take her family to the Fair and she asked me if I was going, I said I might, but I keep playing videogames. This is after I told her I went shopping on Amazon and got a $420.00 detail job on my car. She could be just hating on me because with just my job at Sevita-California Mentor I am able to shop and live my best life and she can't bear to witness me having fun doing it. I also have another meeting with the boss about watching football with Jerry, one of the clients. Gloria, one of the staff told the boss that I was watching football with the clients instead of doing my job. Gloria doesn’t usually work with me, so I don't know what her problem is. I got the OK to watch it from my co-worker on shift Kari to watch it. Also, I just think that since Jerry is a grown man, he would much prefer watching football rather than Gilligan’s Island constantly like a kid. This is the assumption of Narcissistic people that you are a boy if you spend most of your time at home, and this is why Gloria just wants Jerry to watch Gilligan’s Island. Kari went to the boss defending my decision to watch Football with Jerry because I was still getting my work done. When I was scheduled next with Kari, I watched Football with Jerry and just when Gloria was about to clock in, I switched the channel so she wouldn't know. I mean what grown man watches Gilligan’s Island constantly??? You don't need to run the streets to want, as a grown man, to watch football rather than Gilligan’s Island, right? Anyway, till next time MAHALLO!

Hi ALL!!! Another week in my life done! I feel like I am getting older and older. At this stage in my life (I am 50) I can see the end on the horizon. I hope I am good with God and that I have been a good human on earth. I don't have any unhealthy habits like substance abuse or sexual addiction like my brother, so I am in good standing (I hope). My mother tried to call me. I have blocked her from my cellphone and did not answer. I left her a threatening text message, yet she doesn't seem to get the message! She just keeps calling. At this point with all the things she has done to me, the putting in a psych ward for no other reason than that I am smarter than her, the kicking me out of the house for no reason other than I am better looking than her, which is sick for a mother against her son. I text her to start praying for forgiveness for the things she has done. I know that my family will spontaneously show up to my door come Christmas, which I don't appreciate. I wish they wouldn't come at all! It is very painful to see them all try to Gaslight me and talk to me making comments that I am "Crazy". My mother has really poisoned the whole family against me. I will never be there when my mother is dying or dead...I DON'T CARE! On another note, work is doing well. I am having a good relationship with my co-workers good. They mostly try to avoid me in conversations for some reason. Most people I meet try to avoid me, but that is the plight of "The Chosen". I haven't gotten yelled at in a while which usually happens every so often, again, the plight of "the Chosen" people are not going to like you for no reason. the way I see it if I get paid at my job I don't care. I don't think I will last long at my job 1,2 years max. My Aura affects people around me to the point that they will make up stuff to complain about me at the job. Its ok, I have optimized my bills and expenses to the point that I can survive on E.D.D. and Food stamps so I am not worried about losing my job, also usually I qualify for 2 years of E.D.D. as well. For a Chosen I have quite a few possessions in my apartment and a lot of hobbies so I will have things to do when I am out for a job. For a Chosen it is not if you will lose your job, it’s when. Till next time... MAHALLO!

Hello People!!! Yet another week! I am doing quite well this week. I still feel ignored by people like people intentionally try to ignore me in the room. This usually means you are the elephant in the room. As much as people try to ignore me, I can feel that they are staring at me too! Ahh, the life of a Chosen! We have such a great inner world that everybody wants in on it! Add our belief in God and nobody can ignore us! LOLOL! Anyways, I am doing quite well at my job although I still think I will eventually be fired for a stupid reason. People can't stand to work with me. My light irritates their demons, and they must fire me! We had a meeting yesterday at my Group Home. Again, during the meeting, people were looking at me. It could be just me, but I felt like during our Monthly meeting everybody was staring. I also get these mixed signals from people like they don't know what to make of me and I felt this during the meeting. Anyways yesterday was Payday and I had an average check. Not too much overtime this time. I hope to get a Crisis Call again that way I can really get overtime, but I doubt that will happen anytime soon. I can tell people are paying attention to me because every time I talk or say something in the meeting everybody looks. It’s a weird feeling! Like people are waiting for me to lead them somewhere. I feel like a gatekeeper to...somewhere (Heaven?)! My co-workers seem lost and need me to guide them. I swear being a Chosen is an odd life. Everybody wants you to lead but your personality is that of a follower or of someone that just takes orders. I got my Abysswalker Statue that I ordered from Etsy.com! I spent 2 days trying to assemble it. It is a huge statue, and I love it! It’s from my game Dark Souls and I put it on display near the entrance to my bedroom. I don't think I will have too many more opportunities to shop as I am not getting the overtime that I used to. This must be what it feels like to be a veteran computer repair guy! People constantly staring at you because they think you think too much. Oh Well I can think of worse fates in life! MAHALLO!!