HIYA People!!! I had an eventful week this week! I have been playing XCOM2: War of the Chosen a lot lately, and while I play, I keep thinking about my mother and how she treats me. I am beginning to think she sees me as her grandpa who was a womanizer, or she sees me as my dad who may have treated her badly so now, she takes it out on me. My brother too has a lot of frustrations in life, and he also takes it out on me, but because I seem too tough for them to destroy and when my dad was alive, he too joined in, they have just abandoned me here in Bakersfield. My family invited me to Thanksgiving, and I said to myself, should I go? Or should I work and earn holiday pay? I mean why be around jealous people for the holidays who really don't love you anyway right? When you can get some much-needed dough? I mean as it stands now my mother has properly extorted the whole family against me with inheritance to go against me so I mean why endure a Thanksgiving where everybody hates you when you can earn dough that you might need since you are exempt from inheritance? I need the money so I will not be going to Thanksgiving or be attending any Holidays with my family. They have done nothing for me, and I don't know any of them so why see jealous people? There is a song I forget which one it is that has a line in it that says, "I don't be around jealous hateful people". Which is good advice in my book even if it’s your immediate family. I look back at my childhood and my history with my family and I realize I have no relationship with any of them...AT ALL! It is amazing that someone as isolated as me grew up so normal! I mean I really should have been in some Asian gang by now or dead by suicide with all the psychological abuse I endured plus the zero relationship with my family that I have. I mean I did not have a chance in hell to survive add that my mother and father are doctors, and they can make up any "Mental Illness" I have, and everybody will believe them. I should have been dead by now, either by suicide or insane in a psych ward probably locked up for life in there like my Uncle who also was destroyed by his parents, but like I said his parents where not rich and powerful doctors that have all kinds of money and clout to say that he has some fake mental illness to destroy him. It is a testament to my resilience and fortitude, as well as my determination to not be destroyed by rich and powerful people that I am so normal. When you are Chosen, Dark Forces align against you...all your life! MAHALLO!

Hello all!!! My week was quite a thrill ride LOL! I bought NBA2k25 a while back and have been playing it quite a bit. I got the Sliders set a think to a good clip and difficulty. My job has been quite a good uneventful! I am on Crisis watch with another Client. We do a lot of studying with him with Philosophy and Math. He is 23 years old and is Autistic! I am beginning to think that my boss might on the downlow think I am Autistic, so he scheduled me with him. Doing Crisis gives me a good chance to get away from the Group Home. There is a lot of lifting when you work at the Gorup Home especially for me since I am the guy on shift whereas on Crisis I am just sitting. My client’s mom looks familiar. She said she went to Bakersfield College so maybe I might have seen her there. She may have been a classmate of mine...I don’t know! She is phenomenally successful and has a big house, a linguistic computer specialist she said. I had my therapy appointment today and I talked about how my mother called me a few days ago. Again, with my mother calling me it wells up a lot of emotions in me. I absolutely hate her and will not be there when she is dying and dead. My therapist says to give my mother a chance, but I never will. You can’t keep giving Narcissists a chance because that is what they want! They rely on you a good person to give the benefit of the doubt so they can take advantage! I need to hold my ground and stick to the plan of never calling her again! I am seriously thinking of filing a restraining order on her to get her to stop calling...I don’t know. I have been having problems with my router ever since they upgraded the service from 300mps download to 400Mps download and I don't think they have gotten all the lines set because my signal is always up and down. Spectrum won't admit that they have a line problem because that would mean wasting time and resources fixing it...Oh Well! I will just have to tell them that I don't think it’s my equipment and they will just have to come to my house! It gets annoying to have a dropped Internet signal in the middle of watching a show...Anyways! Mahalo!!!

Greetings and Mahalo!!! I had a good week this week. I am beginning to think that I will fit in with my Co-Workers. I am still uneasy, but it seems like it is a possibility! I think Alot of working in a Clinic and Hospital is all about hooking up and dating and being in a social click and if you are like me, you are hardworking and dedicated you won't fit in as a C.M.A. Alot of my Co-workers are kids that are simply happy to wear "Grey's Anatomy" Scrubs. I have over 20+ years’ experience in the Health Field and I came into the Heathfield because it is a "Calling" for me. I am dedicated to helping people in their time of need Healthwise. Right now, a lot of my co-workers are all older and married unlike my co-workers in Pain Clinics and Hospitals who are in their 20's. So, I don't get as much verbal assault as I did as a C.M.A. Like in my previous posts it is the "Path of the Chosen". Alot of people are going to like you and for the same reason a lot of people are going to hate you (envy). I haven't gotten yelled at by another co-worker yet at work so maybe I will no longer get that anymore. I keep remembering my 2 contracts in Tehachapi State Prison and how Honey my co-worker wants to find other jobs to gain experience in other things also she wants to work on her accent. I told her to read a lot of books that will help with the accent, and I also gave her a job lead with Carelinx. Hopefully, this is a sign that people at my work are not going to compete with me and keep verbally assaulting me anymore...I hope not. I am just trying to survive...trying to BUST A NUT! LOL! Anyways!!! (that’s what my ex-girlfriend used to say) MAHALLO!!!